Seven children sat in a meadow. It wasn’t much, the meadow. It was grass and dirt backed by a rusty, collapsing chain link fence that marked the football field apart. Across the way was a barren wasteland, a burnt house, but in this meadow there were signs of life: flowers, bees in the clover, and three trees clawing their way to the sky.
The seven children sat in the sun, eyes shielded from the light by the trio of oaks. They formed a circle, unwitting except for one. Amongst them were personalities that should have clashed. There was Donna, the freckled blonde cheerleader; Jacob, the resident moody outcast; Philip, the spectacle-wearing debate king; Tanya, the russet-haired female guitarist; Lorenzo, the wannabe hero football player; and Missy, the wisp of a girl who hid behind her pale hair.
The seventh person wasn’t really a child, but he pretended to be well enough. He had seen all the other children’s futures. Tanya would die of a heroin overdose. All the others would die in prolonged captivity, surrounded by needles, carcinogenic cleaning products, and crisp white.
So he sat with them behind their high school in this grassy place, brain whirring like the innards of a wristwatch as he tried to figure out how he should tell them. If he didn’t speak, he would watch them, one after another, drop like flies. Missy would last the longest. Her death would be drawn out with throes, wrung in the wash one too many times.
Everyone always wanted to pin down the butterflies. Everyone wanted to put the belongings of the dead behind glass. Everyone always wanted to see their futures and see inside the heads of those around them.
Whoever claimed that humanity wasn’t cursed was blessed by luck outrageously.
None of the six knew him, not really. They’d dreamt of him, yes, and they had more insight about him than most would. They dreamt of him before he’d met them. That was how it worked. Unlike every other character, he wasn’t someone they’d gone to school with grades ago or rode the city bus with that one time. He wasn’t the person they’d raced past, running up the escalator, and he wasn’t the person they’d spilled coffee on. They remembered him as that, of course. Their brains couldn’t understand anything different, really. Special brains, but too human. Not human enough to be left alone, but hazardously so nonetheless.
As was he too human. He was cowed even before he opened his mouth. He was the new kid. The new one accepted to the fold because what he’d done, something he’d wished to never have to do.
He didn’t want to be like them. He wished he was what he appeared to be, like the children but not like them, the brain-rakers.
“If anyone asks, tell them we’re fine,” he said.
Donna looked over at him, a smirk about her cherry red mouth. Her eyes held laughter, but no sound came up her throat.
Tanya’s hoarse voice spoke the things few others would say aloud. “Oh, really? What if I’m on my period then? I shouldn’t complain, eh?”
Lorenzo made a face at Tanya. “Seriously, that’s nasty. That’s why you don’t get dates.”
Tanya punched him in the arm, but the fondness was clear. She liked him.
David sighed. Lorenzo had died asking if Tanya was okay. David hadn’t had the heart to tell Lorenzo, no, she’d died two years earlier on tour. He’d told him that Tanya was fine, that she’d gotten married and had a little girl.
Why’d he done that?
Sometimes he couldn’t answer his own mind. Most of the time he couldn’t answer his own mind. Today he didn’t think he could save them, even if he knew all the statistics.
“There are people, see. They’ll ask you how you are. Don’t tell ‘em about the sleepless nights, okay? Just say you’re fine. Part your lips, look ‘em dead in the eye. Say, ‘I’m fine.’”
“I think David’s on drugs,” Philip commented, even as his fingers ripped a leaf of grass apart. His dark eyes flickered behind thick glass and the hair had risen on his forearms.
Missy looked David in the eye and he felt more caught than he had in years.
“Okay,” she whispered.
The world then seemed to fall to pieces in a way, sort of like black tar slowly began to rain down on the movie of it and obscure everything in sight and then flood into his eyes, his ears, his lungs.
David woke up in his cot and his eyes met the grainy darkness of the small room.
If he couldn’t save them, he’d give them as many sunny days as he could manage.
He rolled back over and tried to find sleep again.
He hoped in the morning he could yell Missy and all the orderlies’ expressions would just project confusion and pity.
He deserved something for his suffering, didn’t he?
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