"Heartbreak," she says.
The only things that fills the air are the ticking of a clock and steady breathes from the both of them. After a couple of minutes, Kelly Rhodes decided to break the silence.
"What one word describes heartbreak?" she asks.
Parker looked up, scoffing at the words that her therapist just said and replies, "You cannot describe heartbreak with one simple word."
Parker stands up, leaving the softness that once embraced her. She started to look out the window and she saw kids running around, laughing at what they said, just enjoying the innocence and freedom, but they did not know what exactly they had.
Parker didn't know that she should have held on to her childhood as tightly as possible with her tiny, fragile hands. No one knew that once you grow up, innocence is over. That was the thing Parker regretted the most. She wished every day that she would have held a tighter grip on childhood, she should have never let go. She sighed leaning on the cold window glass taking slow steady breaths.
"Parker, you need to participate or you will never get better," Kelly states. Parker looked at her therapist, nodding slightly but still would not reply. "Parker can yo-," but Kelly could not finish because Parker started speaking.
"Heartbreak. It is something that can make you stronger or destroy you. It's when you cared so much about that one person, that one thing, that one obsession, and now all you are is in between caring too little or caring too much. It is all you think about and it consumes you. Every time you are above the water it brings you down, but then it will let you back up and just when you think you can start to breathe again, it brings you straight back down. Then finally you wake up just to find out you did this to yourself. You could have let go of the sad memories and only think about the joyful ones, but you didn’t. It devoured, actually you let it devour all the happy moments and you let it leave you with the saddest of them all. You are the one that started the whole process of heartbreak."
Parker licked her dry lips and finally took a deep breathe. Kelly sat there stunned of all the words that Parker said. This was the most that she had said in weeks, but what stunned her the most was Parker was looking straight into her eyes with each word that Parker said. After a couple of seconds, Parker sighed placing her hands on the window seal, staring at the hills that the kids played on.
"You know what the worst of all heartbreaks is Miss. Rhodes?" Parker asked.
"What is that Parker?" she replied professionally, but deep down inside she was jumping all around, eagerly waiting for the response, like she was kid looking at a fresh baked chocolate chip cookie.
"The heartbreak that is the worst of them all, is when you see the person that never left your side is broken because of you. You don't know how to fix it and it is an enormous puzzle that can never be connected, because watching that person break every single day, breaks your heart and there is not one single thing you can do about it." Parker sighs as she wiped the single tear that escaped her eye.
Once again, the ticking of the clock and steady breaths filled the room, but this time it was Parker who broke the silence.
"Yet, all of that Miss. Rhodes still does not describe heart break. Not even a whole lifetime can describe heart break, because heart break is the most confusing feeling of them all. Heart break is every emotion into the category we call heart broken."
Points: 308
Reviews: 6
Donate