Until today, Evaline didn't think she'd ever show these drawings to James. And when she slid the bookmark on the page, she didn't realize until it was too late that it would include that picture with that quote.
The timing was awkward and ironic. Even though he didn't remember, James told her yesterday that he loved her. She didn't know if he meant it or not, and even though she was now asking herself the same question, she wasn't ready to know his answer.
But at the same time, she hadn't been as stubborn to not show him the page because there was a small part of her that wanted to know. She wanted him to know that it had crossed her mind, even before coming to the oasis.
The first part of the sentence—"I refuse to fall in love"—might have hurt him. And obviously, she didn't want that. But how could... how could she explain this?
Evaline was looking up at him the entire time, trying to read his face for a sign, or for something. It was hard to ever read him, and it was difficult to do now too because of his sickness. Still, it seemed that his expression simultaneously hardened and softened.
"I... um..." she began nervously, not sure what kind of response he was expecting from her, if any. She nervously laughed as her mind was basically screaming with questions.
What did he mean by "change how I feel"? How did this make him feel?
"I tried to warn you," she said quietly. "But I guess this is another stubborn moment of yours."
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