the bruises you left on me faded within a week after you let go the marks a temporary testament to people trying to destroy each other by a hand around their throat
i had thought the bruises would stamp out the parts of you we'd burned into each other over time but i have never understood friendship not enough to make a prediction
your fingerprints around my wrist holding me back from traffic glowed every time i thought about it again, not wanting to let you down even though you had stopped reaching out for now
i didn't want you to reach to emptiness should you ever dare touch me again
— April 1, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
the holy grail is scrawled on the inside of your forearm just far enough in nobody can see unless you tip the hand to your heart by lifting your sleeve
written in a moment of panic when you were trying to find something to hold onto; for your hands to grasp in darkness and keep the walls from closing in
the only thing that made sense was something impossible to reach
— April 2, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
speak softly but loud enough for me to hear you over the voices in my own head; caught up in a world of my own memories that shatter upon loud noises and make me realize how cold the wind blows
speak loudly but soft enough to act as a weighted blanket in the night, comforting and most of all distracting from the other voices trying to trap me within their walls
speak. please. that is all i will ever ask
— April 4, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
I have my mother's blood which means my history is one of witches and leaders who don't dare compromise themselves in the name of what you want
Challenge me and I will show you how fragile your power truly was you hold it all in name but I, my dear husband, hold it in practice; you would be nothing without my support, your empress, who knows more about the palace than you ever will.
So challenge my claim to fight for what I desire above all else; I dare you.
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
silence is the killer that allows hate to fester unbridled unchallenged swept under the rug of "it's just one" and "why are you so sensitive. it's just one person's opinion"
i am sensitive because for you it is one for me it is one hundred, built up over days and weeks and years where i was told to stay silent in the name of not rocking the boat
my skin is tough from swallowing opinions and nursing wounds gained from the few times i dared to stand up for how i felt
you lack that training to stand in the face of people telling you you're wrong.
spew your hate i will challenge you and i will not be hurt
— April 5, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
they say once you're a dancer a part of you always remains that way as you glide through life on pointed feet and rhythm you learned to follow effortlessly
i believe the same is true for poets their words recoil back to the place of metaphor and linguistic tricks meant to hide while revealing the deepest secrets of the heart
art is the strongest drug; once it enters your mind no other form of self expression is ever enough for you to feel heard
— April 6, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
Some mornings I stay in bed for three hours at a time to try and wait out the sounds of life directly under my floorboards loud enough for me to hear mistakes, regret and most of all anger at yourself that I know you'll take out on me next time I mess up just like the dog just did by following his instincts
sometimes at night i stay downstairs for three hours after my eyes have tried to close against exhaustion simply because it's more time alone in a soundless space i can dream without fear
My sleep schedule is Hell because dreams are nightmares i never wake from
— April 7, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
i find it funny how bullying is always a boy picking on another much smaller than him, with knocked down papers and leaving bruised shoulders
even when it's girl on girl the message remains: "don't slam people against lockers and knock over what they're carrying. it's not nice"
the next most common is the words yelled across hallways that keep you up past your bedtime that go away when you talk to somebody you trust
i always watch and wonder where is the silence that cuts deeper than a freshly sharpened sword because your eyes never dull and stay sharp with hate and even worse contempt
where is the silence that hurts more than words ever could
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
my poems drift back to you eventually; nothing else is quite big enough to capture everything i want to tell you
a friend said poetry is the end to the mean, when you try and use language to transcend itself; in it you find truth
i feel my truth is too simple when boiled down to three words; subject, object, and transitive verb skipping between i and you that doesn't exist unless there is an actor and an acted upon
roles become part of their actors after enough time spent rehearsing, going through motions until they like the great Hamlet become their mask and even a game of pretend becomes a case of deja vu where your heart is on stage night after night as you speak of hope and loss and love; trite, practiced words but most of all real to the people involved
but acting is intransitive and only requires one person despite most acting being done in front of an audience it isn't required
the best performances are transitive, moving the roles from playing to feeling; two actors are involved, acting upon each other, and their movements become transitive verbs: hoping, losing and loving.
what i'm trying to say is i love you
— April 8, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
My biggest fear is you will spend time with me for an extended period of time, both of us together with nothing but daily responsibilities for company in times we're not putting effort into actively socializing
and you will spend this time, only to slowly grow unhappy with how I sometimes can't stand music or even speech, when stressed and how periodically i forget all the things i need to do and escape too far into my mind
my biggest fear is one day you will look at me and say, "your mother was right; you really are the problem."
— April 9, 2014
A writer is a world trapped in a person— Victor Hugo
Ink is blood. Paper is bandages. The wounded press books to their heart to know they're not alone.
you know that i've been following and reading and studying and dissecting every bit of this since day one, but you need to know that i have read nothing of yours that has made me ache quite like april 9th. top ten, period.
I am a forest fire and an ocean, and I will burn you just as much as I will drown everything you have inside.
-Shinji Moon
I am the property of Rydia, please return me to her ship.
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