TW: mention of death
also includes: strong embarrassment, eavesdropping drivers
Ilias never feared death before. But actually dying... considering he'd experienced it already, well... he was terrified. The thing no one ever has really noticed until they've experienced it, is that pain tolerance does not mean they can take damage and not feel it. Pain tolerance, is feeling the pain, but still doing what needs to be done without curling into a ball of misery.
Now, in the silent car ride, he thought of things he'd never actually paused to think deeply about. Never, had he talked to anyone about his life. The assassin part, specifically. No one knew about it at all, except for two people. But he didn't complain or explain to them. They wouldn't take that, as they'd built him to be as he is now. He kept it to himself.
Then Mari came along. Well, to be more specific, she destroyed his living room, kidnapped him, drugged him, puked on him, threw explosives and vine bombs at him, made him laugh when it hurt to laugh, threw a bread roll at him, forced him to go to the medroom, went to a revolutionary meeting when he said not to, met his parents after riding a storm, got herself kidnapped, then got him kidnapped, tortured, killed, and revived. She has made him realize how much he could care when she had been missing.
And now she was poking his side relentlessly. "Hey. Just before we die. You need to clear your conscience about this."
"Hm?"
"To make it to Loht, you need to cleanse yourself of guilt. So, admit it. Hot dogs are not squaricanized tacos." She was leaning against the back of her seat next to him, staring at the ceiling of the car. Her smile seemed slightly forced, but she was trying.
"Seriously?"
"Yes. Better than the whole silent, tragic, off to the gallows thing we had going on in here."
"I am not admitting to that."
"Then you're doomed, I guess. Don't say I didn't warn you."
"Well, I already know that. Tell me something I don't know."
She was quiet for a moment, then said, "Sure. How about, you mean more to me than you know? More than even I know what to do with? And I'm glad I'll be spending the rest of my life with you, because I can't imagine it with anyone else." She glanced at him briefly from the corner of her eye, then returned her stare to the ceiling, a slight blush coloring her cheeks. "That was cheesy. Wow. Surprised you haven't combusted of secondhand embarrassment."
"Never, had I talked to others about myself. We've gone through a decent amount of stuff, mainly me at the start." She laughed briefly. He smiled. "While there's things I haven't told you, you know a lot more about me than anyone else. I don't know whether to be terrified or not. But like it or not, I don't think I'd choose anyone else to die with either. Words can't express how I feel."
"If only I could explode a garnet right here to show you how I feel," she remarked wryly. "But unleashing a garnet on the astral plane would only hasten our deaths. And, well, being close to anyone is terrifying. There's a vulnerability in sharing your soul with someone. I..." Mari took a breath. "I would've liked to try, anyway, if not for the small fact that we'll be dead by tomorrow."
"I think the driver is going to throw up or die of cringing."
She laughed again, somehow sounding lighter. "Yeah. Well. He'll have good company in Loht, then. He can keep listening to us there and cringe into eternity."
He laughed as well.
The driver chose this moment to inform them that they would not, in fact, be dying today. "Hate to interrupt the soap opera-worthy confessions, but you're actually being recruited, not executed."
"You couldn't tell us earlier? Now I might just want an execution instead."
Mari stared at the back of the driver's head. "Using us as free entertainment? Wow. When I combust from embarrassment, I'll be taking you with me."
"To execute myself or the driver?" He hummed to himself. His cheeks were probably redder than a garnet on the astral plane.
"Neither." She groaned and buried her face in her hands. "I just confessed my feelings to you very clumsily and in a random car with a random driver, didn't I? And I basically opened myself up to vulnerability, which I'll have to go through with now that we're not actually dying. Oh, Darkness."
"Hey, I think I was more cheesy than you. I think I'm an expert on cheesy at this point after 3 movies on it."
"...That is true."
The driver gave a short chuckle, then was silent for the rest of the drive, which wasn't long.
Mari was still mumbling under her breath and shooting annoyed glances at the driver as they pulled up to a nondescript building. It was made of right angles and colored a grey that faintly reflected the dusky light of the astral plane.
Standing right outside the building to greet them was none other than Ikrrr Potash.
She fixed them both with a cool stare as they left the car. "My training dissuades me from simply throwing away useful tools. I hope that you both can be reformed to use your skills for the general good rather than simply for profit." Then she relaxed a fraction. "I am glad to see you alive, Ilias and Mari."
"I'm glad to see you not giving us a murderous glare." Kill the sarcasm for now Ilias. "Thanks Potash. What do we owe you?"
"Many pizzas." She led them inside. "Well, those and your dedication to your new work in a different branch of the government. You'll be focused on security, as the recent breach of the astral plane and the increasingly bold actions of various revolutionary groups have gotten the heads of the ruling families worried."
Ilias followed right behind her. "So, in fancy government words, we'll be sent to get rid of the revolutionary groups."
"Precisely."
"What's with you personally coming here, and the change in heart in general? I'm pretty sure it wasn't just because you wanted to spend our money on every pizza joint in the entire plane."
"That was an important factor." Potash looked absolutely serious, but then she cracked a shadow of a grin. "There were others, however. Your potential use to the government. But, possibly most prominently..." She grew serious again. "I just... couldn't find peace knowing you'd be executed. It's frustrating, for someone whose decisions have nearly always been based in logic. But there nevertheless. And Mid agreed."
"Not all of our decisions were ours to make." Ilias muttered as he turned his head away from Potash, quiet enough Potash wouldn't of heard anything except noise.
Mari, however, leaned against him gently, just enough to let him know that she was there. He smiled at her. Ow. That hurt. She smiled back, then asked Potash, "So, who exactly will we be working for? You and Mid?"
Potash stopped in front of a closed door. "No. This is an entirely different branch of government than the agency Director Mid and I belong to."
"Classified or public?" Ilias inquired.
"Classified, of course. Top secret. Also, everyone thinks you're dead, so get rid of the masks." She pinned them both with a meaningful stare.
"That's one thing I did like." He sighed. "Well, that's hidden back at your agency."
"Good. Mid will retrieve it and destroy it, then."
"Most of my masks are at home, and one is also at the agency."
Potash nodded to Mari. "Same with that one, then. Now, ready to meet your new boss?"
"Good luck finding it. If he doesn't find it, I guess you guys know where to find me."
"Indeed." She knocked on the door.
It opened to reveal the driver from their car. He smiled at them.
Mari gasped. "No... No way. Our boss is the RANDOM DRIVER?! Please excuse me while I combust. Mari should be back with you in.... about ten thousand and one years." She covered her face and toppled forwards to lean against the wall.
No. Well, yes, the driver, but no, not random. He should have noticed when they were in the car. The voice, even the look. He was definitely slacking if he didn't notice that before. It didn't matter how many years it had gone by, the person who initiated the process of tearing him apart and building him back up should be recognizable anywhere on first contact.
Perhaps death hadn't been such a bad option. He kept himself in check, revealing nothing. Well, except a weird, serious, continuous stare. Mari didn't notice, pressed against the wall as she was, and Ikrrr Potash was already speaking again.
"Lavar will be overseeing your operations. I'll leave you to get settled, right after one last thing. Here-- a secure sunstone, for communication with Director Mid and I in times of emergency only."
She dropped sunstones into the hands of Ilias and Mari, who finally peeled herself away from the wall. A few of her bangs were flattened and radiating outwards. She examined the sunstone curiously. Ilias just put the sunstone in his pocket, keeping an eye on "Lavar".
Lavar smiled pleasantly and waved them into the office.
"Can we walk around instead?" Ilias asked. No. Not being in a room with him.
Mari glanced at him curiously, then shrugged. "I'd like to look around as well."
Ilias gave him a you-don't-have-a-choice look.
Lavar stared at them for a moment, then grinned suddenly and stepped out of his office, closing the door behind him. He nodded towards Potash, who excused herself to attend to matters at the agency. "Fine by me."
Ilias nodded, not finding it worth the pain to smile to him.
Lavar rubbed his hands, then led the way down the hallway. The hallways had a bit of a utilitarian feel to them. Mari peered eagerly into the windows they passed, likely looking for a lab. Ilias, while looking around, kept his eye on Lavar.
He didn't seem to show any signs of knowing Ilias. Was it for the benefit of Mari? Or solely to torment him? Lavar walked around, showing them the cafeteria and other offices, all with a small grin on his face. People greeted him in a friendly way. If he needed to get out, he wouldn't be able to rely on people here. He intended to get out ASAP.
Finally, Lavar got down to business, walking backwards with his hands spread in what was probably supposed to be a friendly gesture. "Welcome to Vindeem! Here, your background will be outshone by your current and future actions. We welcome diversity and those from all walks of life, provided they are competent and loyal."
"Mhm." Ilias hummed, not in a suspicious way, just distracted.
"Vindeem? Did you all just chain random letters together?" Mari asked skeptically.
"Of course not! You'd realize once you hear our motto: Vindicate and redeem."
"Ah-ha. I see." Mari still looked slightly skeptical, but shrugged and followed Lavar.
"Good. Here are our training rooms, and on the opposite side is the pool room. You will have access to both, although you'll need to reserve a time."
"So, much the same as at our previous agency," she noted. She glanced at Ilias again. He looked back at her. She raised an eyebrow, silently asking if everything was okay. One corner of his mouth turned down slightly. No, he wasn't.
"Our agency is similar to most other agencies, so you'll recognize a little bit here, a little there."
"Where are your labs?" Mari asked. Want to leave? she tapped against the side of her pants.
Yes. But not now. He tapped back as Lavar was talking about the labs that were at the other end of the building.
She narrowed her eyes briefly at him, then said to Lavar, "Wonderful. Not to be rude, but we have just recently found out that we're not going to die, and that kind of revelation needs to be processed. Is it alright if we take the tour and begin work later, perhaps in a few days?"
"I suppose. I'll make sure someone delivers crystals to your rooms. No one has came here in as bad shape as both of you." Lavar smiled and nodded.
Mari laughed shortly. "If that ain't the Darkness-touched truth. Thank you."
"It's not a problem." Lavar led them to a different hall, with doors on both sides, like a hotel. He handed them their keys and motioned to their doors. "Women are on the right, and men on the left. You have rooms right across from each other."
"Noted." Mari took her key and entered her room. Ilias entered his, making eye contact with Lavar as he was shutting the door. Lavar smiled. Once the door was shut, he looked through the peep hole in the door.
Lavar lingered there for a moment, then dropped the grin and strode away purposefully. Report to Ilias' master, he guessed. Ilias let out his breath, then looked around at his place. Similar to his old one. He of course, started checking for bugs and whatnot. He may not have trusted Potash and Mid in the beginning, he definitely didn't trust Lavar, and never would. He finished his search, and put everything back as it was.
He opened his door cautiously, and seeing no one, he went over and knocked on Mari's door.
After a moment, she opened it. "Squashed a bug. Not going to hold a funeral for it." Her room looked much the same as his in terms of layout.
"Ditto. Do I get to come in?"
"Hmm.... I'm considering charging an entry fee of one large pizza and a drink. But I'll make an exception, just this once." She opened the door wider. He quickly walked in.
As soon as Mari closed the door, she narrowed her eyes at him. "So. You don't like Lavar."
"No. I really don't." He shook his head.
"Any particular reason? I'll admit his clothing ensemble looked rather as if it were trying too hard..."
"When i was seven, one friend I made was called Romario at the time. Around the same age as me. Turns out he was looking for someone who would be fit to become an assassin. Particular enough?" He walked around her place, anxious. He should be sitting down and not moving so much, but he couldn't help it. He looked for bugs, knowing he wouldn't find any.
"So he recruited you." Mari stood by the wall, watching him.
"Well, more like told me we were going one place but we ended up in another."
Mari scowled. "He deceived you. That's awful."
"Yeah. He's also trained, but not by the same guy as me. He just sort of came over to my 'training'," He made air quotes with his fingers. "And that was essentially like a recess for him."
Mari looked like she'd start radiating a cruel, blinding light, like Lightness. "Just how many scum-of-the-planes did you get involved with, Ilias?"
"Lost count."
"So, want me to poison his coffee?"
"I'd prefer to be out and far away from here."
Mari nodded thoughtfully. "I'm sure we can escape once we're fully healed. The main problem will be making a living in a world that (a) hates us, (b) thinks we're dead, and (c) would try to kill us again the moment they find out we're not dead."
Ilias sighed. "Yeah, I've realized that. As far as I know, there's only two people who would know we're alive, but they're also sort of the ones who put us here."
"What about your parents? Or my father? I don't want to burden them with supporting us forever, but maybe just long enough for us to scrape together new identities..."
"My parents are in the spotlight, as for your father...." He hesitated.
"What about my father?"
"Do you have a picture? Or can you find one?"
She frowned briefly, but said, "He teaches literature at a university on the physical plane. You can look up Professor Vélez at Conurba University."
"Could you?" Ilias asked, still in motion.
"Sure." Mari pulled out a sunstone, typed for a moment, then displayed a hologram of her father's staff profile. His Master. This was the one thing he hated being right about the most.
In the hologram, Mari's father smiled at the camera, his dark hair a mess. He gave off a "nerdy professor that occasionally gives cool assignments" vibe.
Mari continued, "He's just a professor. Doesn't even know about my mother running an agency of assassins. Thinks I'm just a chemical engineer. Well-- used to. He'd have seen the trial by now, I suppose."
If she said more, Ilias didn't hear it. He just- wasn't functioning. He felt nauseated, and everything became blobs. He could feel every heartbeat pounding in his skull, and he stumbled over to the blob he was sure was a deep sink, and threw up stomach acid.
Mari was next to him, saying something, but the sounds didn't resolve into words. He tried to stay standing, but gravity was changing. He held onto the sink as his knees buckled, but wasn't strong enough to hold onto it as a dark void swallowed him.
The last thing he felt were arms around him, easing him gently to the floor.
