The Lounge [17]

He's a senior too. Apparently popular.
Though you couldn't tell by what he wears...

So...I had a bad day. If I have additude, don't blame me.

Alright. Well, I'm still doing homework. I have 12 more problems to do and they take forever, so I'll probably be back around 6:30 my time. When are you leaving for that party again? 7 or 8?

On Saterday, 7:00.

And this just goes to show how stressed I am. Mixing up everything.
But I'll be back around 6:30 my time, hopefully. If I can't finish, I'm making my brother do it for me or show me how or something. I'm done with this sh*t.

*sighs and nods*

I'm crying right now, my head hurts, and I feel completely helpless and stressed and just...ugh. I feel like I want to rip of someone's head. I just don't know what to do. And my mom left, which gives me no one to talk to about it because my friends are just giving me additude, and I feel like I want to just go on a hole and die.

Put on some music. If you need to, you can vent to me on here or through PM. I saw your status already. I might not respond to it for a while, but it might help you blow off some steam.

Heh. I vented to my grandma. She's scared now.

And I am. I'm just so stressed. I won't even eat. I don't want to type the whole thing out either. Just makes me think about it more. I think I'm just gonna call Mari and yell at her. Maybe that'll make me feel better.

..That might damage your friendship, but okay.
Why don't you write out your feelings? You used to write poetry but you haven't in a while. Maybe that would help you.

I don't wanna write. Again, if I write about it It'll make me think more.

And she's not answering her phone. So I'm just calling Emily and gonna talk to her about it.

*shrugs* It was just a suggestion. When I write about something, after it's said and done, it leaves my system. I stop dwelling on it and focus on the rhythmic pattern of the piece, the grammar, what could be fixed, etc... I lose myself in it. That's why I suggested it.

Oh. Not for me.

*shrugs* I don't know then.
11 more problems to go.

Ok.

My dad just kicked me out of the living room for "being mouthy." He was nagging me about my exams next week and about how I should do better than usual seeing as i get to use a cheat sheet on my Algebra II one. So I told him that I didn't want to think about that and that I wanted to finish this. He blew up on me and now I'm locked in my room, emotionally unstable and mentally frustrated. My mom came up and asked my brother to help me, but I don't want help. I want to be freaking done. I don't want to be nagged or yelled at.

And i'm getting nowhere. 10 more to go.