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Martyr of Banality (about wanting to implode...)

Poppi · 2005-10-28T15:59:51Z

Trying to slit my throat with a pin But look where it’s getting me. All that came of my dowsing with death Was the feeling of a knife in my stomach And the fear to keep me from the drugs that I need Adding pain to more pain To more fear to more fear. All would be over and done with Had I the guts to slit my throat And hang myself out to bleed Until I am nothing but a pale carcass On a Monday morning. And why is there no one to kiss my thighs better When they are open and bleeding and raw? To lick the blood from the wounds on my breasts That shall never fade in my heart. Why is there no one to tell me I’ll be fine No God I can turn to in need? But I am just like so many girls Alone and restricted and dumb. One day one of us shall find her way out And heads shall shake And voices shall say: “Just yet another martyr of banality…” … Don’t tell me I’m crazy I already know At night I dream I am drowning in fear. Cutting myself to pieces Like there is no tomorrow Should I go play cricket in the mines? Shall I offer my soul for adoption And flee from the city calls that are pressing me in? But what am I of the world? Just what they call another martyr to banality Yet another name on a list Of so many dead From the fear that revolves round my head. This is the end of my life as I know it.

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Mon Oct 31, 2005 8:16 pm

Chevy says... · Mon Oct 31, 2005 8:16 pm

Sounds like someone is having a hard time...

A little lengthy, little cliche, could use a little imagery, and of the likes so yeah--work on it.

when there's nowhere to go, it's time to grow up.

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Tue Nov 01, 2005 8:28 am

Poppi says... · Tue Nov 01, 2005 8:28 am

Martyr of Banality... such a joy in life... such happiness... such a desire to just implode...

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Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:58 am

Fireweed says... · Wed Nov 02, 2005 2:58 am

i dont mean to be rude or anything but i hate the oxford english dictionary!! GRRRAAARRR!!! it sucks man!! i swear, its so friggin confusing!! cuz it explains all the big words with yet MORE big words, so i have to look them up, and then it defines them with even more big words i have to look up, and you get the picture. :roll:

sorry, i know that little dictionary rant was a bit off-topic, but i had to explain why i dont use a dictionary so you wouldnt hate me. and thanks for explaining the words, by the way.