(Night)
As night falls, shadows lengthen until they give way to total darkness. There is no moon to bring in any bit of light to the cold, dark bedroom where she lays. She shivers, but does not bother to pull the old quilt around her. Maybe if she's lucky, she'll freeze to death. And anyway, being cold makes it feel as if he's here laying beside her again. Slowly, she lifts her head.
No one there. Of course not.
She scolds herself for being so foolish as the pain in her chest flares. Her eyes burn with unshed tears, her body shakes from the sobs she holds back. She reaches for a pillow and shoves her face into it, finally letting herself cry. Memories flash in her mind and she remembers him. His face...his eyes...the way he smiles...the way his icy fingertips feel against her warm skin. Never again will she see his face nor feel his touch. She'd been so sure...so sure he loved her.
Well, now she knows she was wrong. And she feels like she should have known all along. After all, he's the equivalent of a god, and what is she? A mere mortal. A foolish, stupid, ugly human girl.
The tears feel as if they will never end. A minute slips by...then an hour...another...she cries till she has no tears left. Only then, when her eyes are red and swollen and her mind too exhausted to keep awake a second longer, does she give in to her nightmares.
A/N: This is a drabble set shortly after Edward leaves in New Moon. It was inspired by the song 'Almost Lover' by A Fine Frenzy. It's a very emotional, heartwrenching song and it reminds me very much of the pain Bella went through in the second book. I decided to listen to song again just to see what I came up with while listening to it.
