I sighed. Finally we were going somewhere. What the hell had been taking everyone so long? What if we’d been attacked in this? There was no hope dwelling on the past. We were moving and that was what mattered. Though…I couldn’t help but notice that everyone was getting out of the car, that everyone was packing.
I sat there looking around at everyone and then realized why they were unpacking. We couldn’t take the car with us. We’d be walking. I felt like an idiot for no noticing sooner. I shoved one box that had been resting on my shoulder and threw the bandage to the ground.
What did we need? We could only afford to take what we needed. A soft breeze brushed the cut on my head and I winced. What we needed we didn’t have. We had guns, we had each other. I couldn’t help but wonder if that would be enough and a strong sense of loneliness wrapped around me causing a violent shudder.
I was letting myself be afraid again. That never did any good. I shouldered an overstuffed black bag with unknown contents and got behind everyone else. I didn’t want a gun. Guns were almost meaningless to me. Using one just brought back memories that needn’t be brought back. Now a knife…if I’d only knew where my knife had gone.
I dug into my jeans pocket for my long lost friend but only fingered coins that were beyond ever getting out of the small space. My sweater pocket held nothing. My purse…I’d left my purse.
We started walking in a cold silence that was comfortable, and yet interrupted seconds later.
“Where are we going to go?” Abby asked, voice just above a whisper.
“The mall.” I said laughing to myself. I got a couple of worried glances and scoffed. “Well, that’s where people are usually safe…in the movies I mean. They usually go to the mall. Which, if I do say so myself, is a little iron__”
“Are you okay?” Mev interjected. I scowled
“I’m fine damn it.” Joanna looked up at my head.
“Where’s your__”
“Trashed it. It looked disgusting.” Another wondering glance and I looked down. Something gleamed on the gravel on the side of the road and I rushed over to it. My knife, though how it got there…I shook my head. It didn’t matter. I had it now.
I fell behind a little as Kev marched them sternly ahead and pocketed the small weapon into my tight jeans where I knew it wouldn’t be lost.
“Kev!” I called. Running up to the group once more. He turned around but didn’t stop walking. The wretch on his face made we wince but I gulped and continued on. “I know a place that we can go. It’s not far…it’s hidden but not far. It’s well,it was secret…and I_ seeing as how we need it now. We can use it.” He looked serious for a moment and then managed a small “smile” that you would have missed if you blinked.
“Then let’s go before those assholes see what we’re up to. We can’t take anymore than we already have.” He murmured something like not wanting to anyways but I ignored it.
“You…see, try not to be scared when we get there. It’s all in the past. What’s there, it’s all from a long time ago.” I could see Abby searching me and for a second I had the feeling she was reading my thoughts. But no, she couldn’t have guessed what was there. No one could have. I’d hidden it so well. I’d changed.
