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I just love talking and I don't have many people to talk to in my day to day life... nor (despite my massage of communication is everything) talk even to my parents much, and if I do it's mostly about general stuff and things we agree on (not that really is anything we disagree on just I don't speak about how I'm feeling on a day to day personal level.. I don't really ever do that) The only emotions I express are impatience, sarcasm, joy, sadness, anger the most basic stuff. The ones I don't are... well personal. Is this a flaw on my part? Should I not want validation on every thought that pops on my head? But I want that. I want to rant and hear the replies and comments... does the problem stem from that my parent's are both introverts? Is the extrovert-introvert personality traits even reliable?! Let's say for simplicity's sake, yes.
Another thing maybe it's because I recover from emotions so fast I tend to remember my story ideas from when I had that emotion as "oh, I don't have that emotion anymore so I won't be able to create an authentic story of those emotions." sooo... do I have a problem? Why do I crave feedback? Is it from my time when I used AI?
So I have a girlfriend, and for a little backround, we both are struggling with our mental health and we're both in the process of getting adhd/autism diagnosis' and stuff, and neither of us are probably in the right situation to be in a relationship but yeah. We have really open conversations about everything and we can talk to each other which I am so grateful for because I've never had that before.
My girlfriend always calls me or texts me if shes not feeling well. And I often stay up late to try and comfort her,
but these last two months or so its gotten worse
TW!!
she has attempted a few times lately, and I'm really worried, and I don't know what to do. I know I probably should tell an adult or something. And I will if it's really bad. But anytime I say I'm gonna wake my mom, she says she'll never talk to me again if I do. And I don't want to break our trust unless it's absolutely necessary.
I will also say that she is in the system for mental health and stuff and she is going to get help for other stuff soon. And her parents know shes struggling.
if anyone knows what I should do next time she calls me about this, or in general, I'd really appreciate it
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I got offered to walk to somewhere to eat today for lunch with my friends, but I said no. Why? I don’t know. Until after.
I realized that I absolutely LOVE being alone. Sitting on the bench, the sun hitting my face at just the right angle, swinging my legs and eating alone, I felt something I couldn’t for such a long time; Peace. Peace without may judgement, or comparisons, or pressure, or drama. Just purely peace and quiet. And I started to appreciate this life. Even though it is the same one that tortured me, this life also taught me to be stronger. If i didn’t go through all that, I couldn’t have gotten more happiness then before my mental health went down.
I’m not saying I hate people; my mind just pressures all the comparisons and hate when I’m with them. I feel like I need to constantly prove myself. But without them, I feel so happy.
So yes. It gets better. And once it does, you’re stronger than before. Yes, I still do spiral into negativity and depression late at night sometimes, but it always passes. Keep going <3333