Desist

My failures follow my footsteps;
To try to stop them it's all I can do.
They know where I've not been yet;
Where ever I go they seem to go to.

In dark, I followed fake light
On pathways that were golden.
They led me to some new heights
They went out; I was sold, and
I learned I was scared of night.
That's right, I am a scared man

Next few months, I lost feelings.
Some one came who understood;
I told them of my dealings.
They listened, best as they could.
Felt Good, all the scars healing.

What do I decide to do?
I take it one step too far,
Does morning come without dew?
"Attention" you could be marred.
Now I'm back to what I knew;
Uncool, held back from restart.

I'm trailed by great disasters.
What happens when life's too fast,
And you can't break the chapters,
Of your heart's constant collapse?

I want to be rid of this,
But it is hard to hold on.
My willpower can't resist,
The sweetest of evil's songs.
"Help me lord, to carry on."
I ask only to just desist.