Cassidy and I are frienimies.
I first met her sophomore year, the same year I met Tyler (just a little later), and from the beginning I was super jealous of her. She used to be in my chemistry class and the first time we ever really spoke to each other (even though she sat right behind me) she asked me if I liked Tyler because he had told her a girl at school liked him and he described me.
I denied it at first and told her that wasn't important, but after a while of that game I admitted to them all (since it wasn't a secret) that I did in fact like him.
She told me they had been best friends since they were little and this was kind of cool.
I went home that day all upset. I told myself I couldn't have him, because he was already taken. I was mad and I put Cassidy on my list of the only girl in history I have ever been jealous of. I'm not one to get jealous of those girls that wear a ton of makeup and have every boy in the school after him, but when she came around I was way jealous.
My jealousy lasted all of sophomore year, preventing us from becoming friends. I avoided her all the time, I had dream after dream of my jealousy involving her and Tyler, and I vented to all my friends how jealous I was. We hardly ever spoke that year. I saw her around, but that was about it.
Then junior year everything changed. She was in another one of my classes for a semester and I suddenly saw her differently. She was so much like me and I could see her becoming a great friend. I found myself talking to her all the time and we did become good friends. I learned a lot about her and I told her a lot about myself.
But when I saw her next to Tyler, my evil side suddenly came into play. I suddenly didn't like her, I was jealous, and I only wished he would see me for what I was. I didn't let the jealousy take over as it did the previous year. She and I stayed friends for that entire year and it continued into senior year.
But once senior year hit the friendship was suddenly different. Up to her face I thought she was a sweet person and would tell her she was awesome, but at home I would be upset and rant about things. It was during this period of getting to know her that I found out she thought of Tyler as only a friend and he had never been taken. But he still liked her and that really made me upset.
And now that senior year draws to a close I can honestly say we're frienimies. I've never had a frienimy before and it's kind of weird, but Cassidy is an awesome girl and I can't ever think about judging our friendship based off my jealousy. I've gotten older now, but our friendship status will always remain. I'm positive she doesn't know about this and I plan to keep it that way. I wouldn't want anything jeopardizing our friendship.
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