depression

Depression?
I can’t quite explain how i feel right now. I am constantly sad, or mad beyond belief. I dread having any contact with other humans, even my family and close friends. I get angry with people who envy my life. There is nothing I have that is worth going through what I have gone through. I feel isolated from the rest of the world. I feel as though I am not running at the same rate as everyone else, every minute seems like an hour. I hate the constant glare of the florescent lights above me, I feel as though I am being revealed. When I listen to music I feel like it is talking to me. I feel so relaxed and relieved of that anger running through my veins. The music just lets me feel the sadness. I constantly feel exhausted to the point where sometimes I can’t function properly. At night I can’t sleep properly; I can still hear everything that is going on. When I do sleep, I feel like I never want to wake. I feel like I lost myself; and the way I feel now is the way I’m going to feel forever. I feel alone, and like it; that scares me.