my generation, beaten and torn, confined into the straitjacket of conformity, caught in a fine-spun wicker basket insects swarming over, crumbling under the hideous deeds of sordid mankind, swirling in a maelstrom of lifeless delusion,
clutching onto a strand of individuality, tenuous, feeble, and the thread is unraveling so fast so fast so fast oh catch them before they fall,
and misunderstood & underappreciated, my psalms of truth gather dust as time withers them away, tragically ignored,
because they’d rather believe those sugar-coated lies those vipers in disguise than my hysterical acrimony, the tortuous cacophony,
because they’d rather ignore the looming face of trickery barely visible through the opaque blockade of toxic grass, of fine powder, of liquid Venom,
yes ma’am yes sir I’ll do as you say & I’ll act as you say & I’ll think as you say mommy daddy they told me so oh they told me so oh I must obey,
those robotic jerking sickening movements and one by one they stand, posers! jokers! liars! deceivers! blank faces & identities they’re all the same searching for nothing, those tragic nomads all identical all the same,
sinking under Delirium they are dragged into Oblivion into the sins of humanity and there’s no turning back,
the whole world’s just a big fucking propaganda and tell me kind sir tell me what to say what to believe all around me signs! advertisements! sermons! it’s commercial warfare a wild arms race the arsenal is jam-packed tight it’s all about who fucks people up the most I need my oxygen,
bolted down by parental and institutional anesthetics they numbly watch the blurry world whizzing by like a preordained kaleidoscope,
blind to the walls closing tight squeezed tight, deaf to the war raging swarming angry bees Nazi fleets, mute and unresponsive to the fatal regulations binding the metal clangs snaps shut jail life pea pod shell doom,
and meanwhile, I scream underwater flail piteously my eyes glazed over with the pain and cruelty of it all but everything still falls I need my oxygen my oxygen need oxygen!
my tales almost permeate the suffocating atmosphere but stop midair, halted by all the formulaic bullshit incantations, hypnosis, irrevocable & irremovable,
too fucking scared too fucking brainwashed too fucked up the ass to care so now all your Idiosyncrasies fade to black,
I look into those eyes those heinous blazing eyes those stagnant voids eroded into dullness by time and there’s no one behind them,
I see nothing oh god oh god I see nothing behind those eyes,
I can see you breathing but are you even there,
are you even there?
and now their lives dissipate leave muddy tracks that ebb away but the shell is there empty egg rolls crazy wrecked no self control, Allah oh please save them they need their oxygen.
-Author's note-
I understand that this isn't exactly in the conventional form of poetry, so I thought I'd offer some explanation.
As I said before, this poem was an English assignment to emulate the style of the Beat Generation's Allen Ginsberg. It's basically in the point of view of an insane person under the influence of drugs, and this poem is the delerious, outraged ramblings of said insane person. In other words, this poem is supposed to come off as bizarre and GLORIOUSLY confusing.
So after you read this poem, you are thinking:
1) "What the hell was that?"
2) "There's a lot of anger pent up in this sad, twisted person."
then leave me a positive comment and a gold star, because that is precisely what I was going for. If not, then leave me some advice on how to capture the thoughts of a crazy, drugged-out person at least a little better.
Sorry for the confusion. And thanks for the comments!
-mercipourlevenin
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