To dear old dad-Language

This is a free write I did last night

How can I ever love you?
With every selfish action
that has hurt in so many ways.

You never truly listen to every word I speak
You just take them and twist them to fit your sick twisted reality.

A girls father is supposed to be her knight in shinning armor,
But you were the villain that I ran from
Whenever you entered the room.

Why can't you just magically disappear?
Knowing you has been more trouble,suffering, and pain
Then it was ever worth for those few happy moments.

After the divorce you tried to buy our love.
All while you single handily killed moms happiness
And ripped our lives apart.

You suddenly were So afraid of losing us,
But you never had before.
Before you yelled and verbally abused us.
You couldn't have gived a fuck about our well being.

You never know what you have till you lose it.
How true!.

But I remember every single thing,
I will never let go of those horrible memories.

You no longer have my respect,trust,and love.
Respect must be earned, It is not free.
I no longer trust you because of all your evil and deceitful lies.
I can no longer love you.
You have hurt me,
I have the mental scars of all the evil deeds that you have hurt me with.

I needed my knight in shinning armor to come to my rescue,
But I could only find an evil villain.
So just go the fuck away
And never come close anymore.
I shall never need you.
You hurt me and I can never forgive you.