Being a recreational drug user and experimenter of consciousness, the description is what caught my attention here. It's a noble statement and account of substance use; Getting high, being high, coming down from the high and the resulting questions of the high. Your poem walks the reader through this trajectory. Take, for example, the first stanza;
"I smell the flames as they flicker about
Reaching boldly for the sky.
I hear the colors of the flames
Blue, orange, red and green.
It is strange to sense these things
But feel no pain."
This is the "getting high." Wow! That flame smells strange! Wait, I can smell flames? This is weird. I don't feel anything. "No pain!"
Then, the second stanza;
"Why are my blinds pulled crooked
Are eyes peeping through?
Is someone or something out there?
Are they coming for me?
Is there anything that is real?
I'm not deaf or blind,
But I see and feel no pain."
This is the "Being high" phase. What's real right now? What's even happening? I don't trust my senses anymore. This lack of pain is ironically unsettling.
Followed by the third stanza;
"SCREEEEEEECH !!!! My mind screams
As it turns inside out
To reveal a tortured soul
Trying to escape from an evil world.
As it closes again and I sink down,
Down back to the abyss."
This is the "comedown" phase. The drug reveals you to yourself. It begins to wear off, and you know that you'll never be able to undo it. It takes you back to the "abyss" of sobriety.
And, finally, the fourth stanza;
"Am I losing my mind
Or have I truly found it?
What is real and what is not
As it has no meaning.
Are substances really the answer to my pain?"
This is the "questions" phase. Was that real? Will I ever be the same person again? Is this substance a solution, or means to an end? Is the lack of pain evidence of the nonexistence of pain?
In my opinion, people who abuse drugs make the people who use drugs look bad.
If you can ingest a foreign substance, assume full responsibility for it and be okay once the high wears off, then more power to you.
With an abuser, however, the drugs are rarely the illness. They're merely a symptom to a larger problem, such as depression, anxiety, self-loathing, etc.
If this is a personal account of your experiences, I'd recommend abstaining from drugs. They'll eat you up if you're not properly predisposed. If you're sad, they'll make you sadder. If you're glad, they'll make you gladder. Simple as that.
Don't let them win.
Points: 22
Reviews: 20
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