Author's Note: This was very impulsive so it's not the best. I'd still love it if you all read it! Hope you enoy it, at least a tiny bit (:
I don’t think you’d understand it if I told you.
You wouldn’t believe me. Or even worse you’d think I’m crazy.
I can’t help it. I am drawn to you, consumed by you and you are completely clueless. How can you be so clueless? You go on like there isn’t someone out there for you. How can you be so content with being alone? Are you alone? I am so alone.
Are you beginning to understand? Are the pieces falling into place? Well I hope so because I can’t take this much longer. The thought of you is bringing me to my knees. The traces you’ve left in my life are breaking me, twisting me, until I am not me anymore. I am a lovesick stranger.
I’d love you forever. I want you to understand that. It’ll be a kind of desperate, turbulent love that you will never experience. We’d tear each other apart. We’d feed on each other. But we’d never be able to leave each other. Oh no, then it’d be too hard to breathe. We’d get no sleep, tossing and turning at night just thinking of the other lying in bed alone.
But when it finally happens you would be the first one to leave. That’s just how you are. You’d be so upset you’d storm out and won’t even bother to look back. You’d leave me there gasping for air. My face would turn blue and purple. I’d run to the windows and open them all; a rush of cold, wet air would work its way into the room. But there would be no use.
In the end though you’d come back first, I know you would. You’d break your tough guy persona because you’ve discovered something new with me, something essential to your life. You would get on your knees and clutch me while resting your head on my stomach. I’d take a breath of that pure pure air that I need. My fingers would coil into your hair; a sigh of relief would escape from my mouth. My tears would land on the top of your head.
I’d beg you to get up. I wouldn’t be able to stand to see you break. Not you, my love. Just like the pitter patter of rain from outside your tears would land on my shoes.
I’d collapse onto the ground with you. I’d hold you in my arms and look into your eyes. I would want to erase the fear and anguish I see there. Impulsively, I’d kiss your lips and make you promise never to leave again.
The writing is so great, and I can also relate to this. Keep it up.
The writing is so great, and I can also relate to this. Keep it up.
I can totally relate to this in so many ways. It is hard to believe you just did this spear of the moment, very impulsively I do believe you said above. I have just joined so I have not read your other stuff but if this is just your okay then I will totally be reading more. What made you want to write this? It is so beautiful yet sad all at the same time. Love, Love, Love this.
~Tribee91