~this has a very bad title, would love a new one~
your words echo in my mind
and in my soul
along with a life’s confusion
it’s just one more thing added to the pile
the nest that is my mind
the battle that is my soul
but will those help to untangle, to fight?
or add another thread and army, bent on killing me?
In the night I see it growing
the dreaded knot and forces unseen
seek to throw me under a tidal wave
of dark thoughts and feelings, to a place
where not even you can breach
although G-d knows you try
It’s a hidden well inside of me
almost always covered by a curtain of
false feelings and the attempt to hide its dark demeanor
from those who wish to harness its power over me in
a foolish attempt to break me
In that secret pit lives all my worst fears
Fears that the person of evil intent would gladly love
to use to hurt and harm my ever so fragile
position on the thin line between saneness and insanity
a line created to control the beast inside and keep
it locked in its place at the bottom of that blasted hole
kept in line by the fears and nightmares
but even monsters need to breathe, to feed
so I allow it to take control only in the deepest part of night
where the scream and tears go unseen by
sightless eyes and deaf ears, so that once
again I’m ensnared within the fears and
nightmares I dread
Its freedom means my imprisonment
to be locked away in that horrible pit
held captive by the fears and nightmares
other created in hopes to control, to harm
the monster that is my other half
the reckless one, the one who seeks pain
the one I fear and admire
everything that I’m not
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