My conscience is guilty, tears run down
Why do I live? I wish I’d drown!
I’m turning my own life hell
And can clearly hear the warning bell
Which my mind keeps ringing.
The good and the evil live together
In between, my wild mind needs a tether
‘Cause I’m unable to decide which to choose
The evil overpowers, the good I lose.
The heart is, a sad song singing!
Short temper, comparing, hopelessness
Guilt, mischievousness- I am a mess!
All those emotions I wished would die
Are making the assertion ‘I am good!’ a lie
What a hard lesson this life is bringing!
When finally I conquer over the bad
Its under my care- a good lad!
But then it breaks away free
Only I know the miserable state of me
Why is the evil- to me- clinging?
With good comes happiness
The evil makes it less
So here I lay- all bad !
Thinking of the merry days I had had
Why isn’t the happiness –with me- mingling?
Dumb despair spreads o’er
Bringing my morale lower
Oh! I am nuts! I am insane!
But am I to be never happy again?
Am I to be left deserted?
With mud on my reputation spurted?
Am I to be depressed all along?
And in that state spend the hopeless days- so long!
My heart is singing a sad song!
The warning bells are ringing!