i
loved you hesitantly –
in the
nod at the radio static and the daily rain report,
in the
pause at the cross-walk and polite hello-goodbye between
another hello,
and wondering
what you are thinking now, and i’m probably busy
this weekend
but maybe another
time,
and trying the radio again –
and almost getting caught
in a thunder
storm,
and
in drawing maps out
of your words,
in trying
to catch the pattern in the wings of mayflies and the cracks on sidewalk edges,
remembering too
many
of your stray
details
that don’t belong with me
so i leave them on my countertop hoping i’ll have a chance to return
them
before we collect any more dust,
in the
days that make up seasons,
but only
ever one at a time
little by
little, because i knew
if i
loved you how you were meant to be loved,
i’d never
be able to let you go.
and i
remember you hesitantly
–
in the
weight of the syllables of your name – heavy; but silt-like
always sneaking through my fingers – until you return again
like a wave to a shore and these conversations echoing in my ears
over and over – between strained goodbye, and radio-static again,
in the recollection of uncomfortable hush as we listened
that summer
to the
snap of cricket choirs
and foot
steps on pavement,
and wondering what i am thinking
now
or if the rain could fill up these broken fault-lines – keep land from
separating,
draw close miles stretched out too thin, bring us back
if only to give up mapmaking, if only to misinterpret every sign of
rain,
if only to pass at cross-walks and polite hello-goodbye
between hello again.
I think this poem is about having a relationship with someone and losing touch with them over time.Then,trying to get back to them no matter what,but time has driven away the easy relationship and it’s just awkward moments with each other.It’s never going to be the same again,ever.Great poem! I hope you have a lovely and amazing day and night.
Hey alliyah!
First of all, wow! This is a beautiful poem. This should totally be in the literary spotlight!!
I really liked how you repeat hesitantly in the first lines of both the stanzas. It makes it very powerful in a gentle way, like the soft patter of rain on the roof, gentle yet unyielding.
There's something soft about the whole poem. That's probably a dumb way to describe a poem but that's what comes to my mind so...
It describes a gentle, soft kind of love, hesitant and mildly regretful, almost wistful. It makes you think about everyday things, so mundane but yet so precious. This feeling is also expressed in the title. You've done a great job with the poem.
I really loved this part:
always sneaking through my fingers – until you return again
like a wave to a shore and these conversations echoing in my ears
The "wave to a shore" was a lovely way to put it. <3
On the whole, it was a wonderful poem, like a gentle summer breeze, cooling you for a second, making you smile, and then leaving you wistful. Great going! 
Can't wait to read more of your work.
Keep writing. <3
Hi! Ilium here for a review!
WHY THE TACO ISN'T THIS ON THE LITERARY SPOTLIGHT, THIS IS SUPER AWESOME!!!
Ok, now that that outburst is done, let's get to the review, shall we?
First off, the way you write is beautiful. You draw beautiful symbolism through radio and its static, and I find that to be absolutely amazing. It's also soo cool how you seem to think about (I'm a guy, so I immediately thought about a girl for this poem) her a lot, and all the things that your relationship can mean and all the- I just, I relate a lot to this poem on multiple levels, and that's really cool. It's hard for me to write poems that relate to someone else well, but the way you did it was phenomenal.
One line confused me, it was the "and wondering what I am thinking now." I just didn't quite understand that line.
I think this poem is amazing and you should continue writing stuff like this. Peace and Tacos be with you!
This poem is very beautiful. However, something about the way you write this confuses me a tad bit though, is it a crush? A lost friendship? A previous relationship that ended? Not saying it's bad, but it's quite intriguing. The symbol of the radio static is another thing I quite like about this. Good Job!
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