I know I will never send this letter to you. Ever. I cannot bear to receive more of your amazing letters. I am almost crying even thinking about you.
The reason I stopped talking to you....well, it was because we had to leave. My dad’s job was taking him across the country and I would never see you again. I will never see you again. So instead of go through the horrible time growing apart from each other, I cut you off. I didn't reply.
I bet you hate me.
It would have been easier if I didn't love you so much. But I do, Lacy. I love you so much. More than you can imagine.
You are so beautiful. And you don't even realize it. You chose me when any guy would have loved to be yours. I loved the time I got to spend with you.
But now...it's gone. I am far away from you and I will never again wrap my arms around you. I will never again feel your soft lips pressed against mine. I will never again comfort you when you are sad, or mad, or upset.
I am no longer yours.
And yet, if I came back, would you still care about me? Would you run and jump into my arms like you used to? Or would you ignore me entirely and break my heart again? I am hoping for the first one. I still love you, Lacy.
With much love,