Adam Sandler shot my mom in the head.
in character, Howie Ratner from the
2019 film Uncut Gems told me
"i hafta! it's in the script! i hafta!"
out of all my nightmares,
there's been worse.
my heart was a wasps nest
how it buzzed and stirred.
i begged my ribs to crack
and let them flood out.
for what an intrusion of stings
could do, i cannot;
articulate how scared i truly am.