“No…no…no,”
Rachel whimpered. Once again, she was trying to access Jigoku Tsuushin, and yet
it still wouldn’t appear. Again and again, she clicked the refresh button
until, after that long, excruciating minute, the clock turned 12:01.
She
collapsed on the keyboard, sobs wracking her body. “Why, Jigoku Shoujo? Why won’t
you come save me?” she whispered, “That man has to disappear. Why won’t you
protect us? I don’t know what else to do!”
As she said
this, she thought she felt eyes on her back, and she turned around to see Enma
Ai standing there. The silver light of the moon gleamed on her pale skin and
red eyes, and it reflected off her straight, black hair.
“Jigoku
Shoujo!” Rachel gasped, throwing herself at the girl’s feet. “You finally came!
You’re going to accept my request, right?”
“I cannot
accept your request,” Enma Ai told her softly.
Rachel’s
breath caught in her throat. “Why?” she asked, her voice a whisper, her face
growing desperate.
“You are
unable to send a person to Hell.”
“What? No!
That’s ridiculous! How come I, of all people, can’t do it? You accept others’
requests, right?”
“I do
accept others’ requests.”
“Then why
not mine? Why?”
Enma Ai
watched her for a long moment, their eyes locked. Enma Ai’s red eyes seemed to
bore into Rachel’s soul, and in them, Rachel thought she saw a depth of lost loneliness.
Finally, Jigoku Shoujo spoke again. “You have been made one with Christ,” she
said softly, “Christ is the One who redeems people from Hell. He does not
condemn. If you are in Christ, you cannot send a person to Hell.”
At this,
Rachel suddenly trembled violently, like a young tree struck with a powerful
gust of wind. She pressed her hand over her mouth, tears falling from her eyes
so unexpectedly that she couldn’t hold them back. Shutting her eyes tightly,
she pressed her other hand over the one that was already on her mouth and shook
with silent sobs. She had all at once been overwhelmed with horror at what she
had been trying to do. How could she damn a person—even someone as terrible as
her father—when she had been called to save him?
“But what—am
I supposed to do?” she wept, her voice broken by sobs, “He…he gets drunk and
abuses me almost every day, and even though I try to protect my little brother
and sister, he sometimes beats them too! And my mother…he…hated her too—when
she got sick, he waited too long before taking her to the hospital, and by then
it was too late to save her! He tells me his life would be so much better if I
didn’t exist…and I’m so afraid! I don’t know what he would do if I went to the
police. I feel trapped! If only that man would just disappear! Who can I turn
to, Jigoku Shoujo, if not you? Who will make this stop?”
“You
already know who you can turn to,” Enma Ai said.
Rachel
stopped, staring at her. She knew Enma Ai was referring to Jesus. Biting her
lip, she lowered her eyes. “Well, He hasn’t done anything to stop it yet,” she
muttered, frightened at the resentment she found rising out of the darkest
caverns of her heart.
“He has
been here the whole time,” Enma Ai said, and as she spoke, Rachel looked up,
her eyes widening.
Another
person faded into the room next to Jigoku Shoujo, but His appearance was
entirely different from hers. Instead of black clothes, He was wearing white
robes. His face and hair did not contrast sharply like Enma Ai’s, but rather
his hair was dark brown and his bearded face was tan. His eyes were intense,
but unlike Enma Ai’s, they were blue-green. Instead of empty loneliness, Christ’s
eyes were full of assurance and grace.
The
unexpected appearance of her Savior shook Rachel to the core. Though she
believed in Him and had prayed to Him, she had never encountered Him in this
way before. “Lord…” she gasped.
Enma Ai
remained still, but she turned her eyes away from Him, staring down at the
floor to her left.
Rachel’s
eyes filled with tears again. She could hardly bear the compassion she saw in
Christ’s eyes. “Lord, why haven’t You done anything to protect me from this?”
she pleaded, “Why have you allowed my father to continue abusing us?”
“Your
father acts the way he does because he does not know Me,” Jesus replied, “If he
knew Me, he would not hate you. Rachel, have you told him about Me yet?”
He knows the answer to that, of course,
Rachel thought. She felt ashamed and couldn’t look Him in the eyes as she told
Him, “No, I haven’t. I’m afraid to bring up the subject around him.”
“Do not be
afraid,” Jesus said, and though He spoke gently, it was a command to be obeyed,
“You will be My witness to your father, and I will be with you. Forgive him,
and do not hate him. Though you must endure for now, when the time comes, you
will be filled with joy.”
He smiled,
and the love in that smile overwhelmed Rachel so much that she ran and hugged
Him, her tears staining His robes. “I am with you, My child,” Jesus said
gently, putting one hand on her head, “And I will be with you always.” Even as
He was speaking, He faded from view, though Rachel could still strongly feel
the presence of His Spirit. She thought she could still feel His warm embrace
too.
Full of joy
and new hope, she resolved in her heart to tell her father about Jesus, and to
continue witnessing to him until he believed. God will save him, she thought, and she realized that she loved him
and truly wanted him to be saved. She couldn’t remember a time when she had
really loved her father, but now she understood that he was suffering too, in a
world without hope. More than anything, he needed Christ.
Rachel
turned to thank Enma Ai for refusing her request, but Jigoku Shoujo was no
longer there. She was no longer needed.
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