Young Writers Society

We danced in the sunsets, we laughed under the stars, we kissed on the rooftop, I cried in your arms, And I can still remember your smell, even after all this time. I wonder if you can even remember my face. I saw you there struck in sunlight, talking like the world revolved around you, from that moment my whole world did. You were talking with your friends, but don’t think I didn’t see those glances, and no doubt you saw my eyes so stuck on every feature of your being. That is us, you had all my attention, I only had your stolen glances, it was like drinking raindrops falling from a winter sky. Stolen glances turned into stolen kisses. I remember the whispered dreams we told each other. You would spin me around and tell me you would never let go. You would pull me in and I would stand forever in your arms if the world would let me. That night you told me why you can’t look your parents in the eye. You told me what chases that beautiful smile from your face. You told me the poisons that seep their way into your mind. And that night I swore I would find a way to bring that smile back, I would take all the poison from you, how it hurts to know I failed. And that night, I didn’t tell you why I cry each night, I didn’t tell you any of the weights I bear. Maybe it’s because you never asked, or maybe I was too afraid you would bear my weight for me, I couldn’t let that happen. I remember the first time we kissed as vividly as the color of the sky beneath which it happened. It was cautious, it was scared, it was like a newborn fawn learning to walk. It was pure, it was innocent. I felt your breath, it was warm, it melted every bit of me, everything holding me together. Yes, you surely had undone me. We leaned away unsure, a little scared. You laughed, a light airy laugh, breathless, at least that’s how it left me. I smiled. Then together once more were again, I never really untangled myself from you. I remember our first fight too. I can’t remember what it was about, I just remember the anger, the sadness, the way your shouts sounded in my broken ears. I almost told you then why they were broken, but I let you yell. I took it all. l cried into l cried as soon as your eyes stopped piercing me. I still loved you. We still loved each other, that’s how true our love is, nothing short of death could part us, Nothing, short of- it. Nothing- We. Loved. Each other. Loved? I love you. I remember saying it in the light of the setting sun. Everything seemed so light in that moment. You said it to me, holding me in your arms, protective, loving, delicate. You didn’t know it but you were holding me together completely. The drive home, wind blowing through the open windows, the music was perfect. It always was, we loved music. I loved every song you played; every song you sang imprinted into my brain, your voice like the ocean. I remember it all. I remember every tear you cried, I remember every laugh you laughed, I remember every time you looked into my eyes, I remember every syllable you spoke to me, every time you said you loved me, I remember every sunset I saw with you, I remember the way it felt when you held me. But I am tired of remembering. Tired of trying to relive it in my dreams, tired of looking for your face in the faded stars. I want to feel you again. Oh, my love I’m so excited to see you again, to breathe you in, to fall in love all over again. Mom, I’m so sorry to leave you, if you care, maybe they’ll miss me but surely not as much as I have missed you. My love, my life, my death. I’ll see you soon  -The love of your life