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Am I well? I know I'm not all here. Parts of me have left me alone, never to come back. Days are treading along while I'm stuck. I'm stuck somewhere, but I can't tell where.
I am becoming overwhelmed with depression. There is no light anymore in my world of darkness. I am alone, and everyone else is dead. Why do I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of dead bodies? Everyone is dragging me down, and I CAN'T BREATHE. I need a way out, but where? I know there are others like me, but how do I find them?
I am not sick, and I know that for a fact. However, each day I get worse. Maybe my brain is tricking me into believing I am sick, and possibly it wants me to be terrified. Look, brain. I am frightened, and I don't need this shit from you. I already feel as if I am on every drug in the universe, and I am so deep.
Maybe I like this feeling of being alone. I don't think so, but it's possible. What if this is how I wanted to live my life? Never see anyone who keeps me sane again. I don't know if I'll make it, I want to leave this place of hell. Either way, I know it's impossible.
This may not make much sense, but I don't care. It doesn't matter to me. I'm just trying to make it through.
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I want you to know that YOU are NOT alone. Which reason enough for you to make through. You should use that as motivation. But don't try to do it to set an example for others. Set an example for yourself. Be your own competition. Run your own race and Win your own race! Don't let yourself drag you down. I hope that makes sense.
All of us have a difficult time and there are two ways of facing it; Giving in to the emptiness and wait to become it, or FACING it head on and saying. "FUCK IT. I'M GONNA MAKE IT BECAUSE I THAT'S WHAT I DO." I apologize for the language. Well, because you know what? TO HELL WITH THE LONELINESS. My girlfriend left me two years ago and I think I fully recovered only because of that attitude. And for the record it took me a measly two months to recover from something I had gone through for two years once I developed this flare.
My studies instantly went up and so did my Tennis. I flunked my 9th grade and did average in about 25 of my 10th grade preliminary exams. I failed math once and barely passed the other two times. I'm sure I did fine in my finals but this isn't about me. I'm sure this feeling is bothering you in its own ways and I hope you are able to muster the strength tell it to go to hell.
Please get well.
Yours sincerely,
Grav
Awwww thank you so much
Really means the world that you took the time to right a review
It means the world to me that it means the world to you
I know how you feel I am bored and alone alot too
Aw yes
. I'm very sorry you feel alone too, it's such a hard thing.
I hope quarantine isn't making that worse, and if it is I'm so sorry.
Hello PlainandSimple
First, I just want to say, you're definitely not alone. And I'm not gonna say it'll get better, because nobody can guarantee that, but if you ever want to talk to anyone my PMs are open.
If you're actually interested in a review, you can read the spoiler below; but if you just needed to write this for yourself and don't care about how literarily well written it is, please feel free to ignore it.
Spoiler
You can cut out "...me alone", as it's redundant.
I think what you meant here was "I am in so deep".
wanted -> want
Again, if you're not interested in a review, please feel free to ignore the spoiler. And if you want to talk, feel free to PM me. (I know I'm a random stranger, but sometimes it just helps to rant to someone who will listen impartially)
I hope you feel better soon.
Whatchamacallit
Thank you so much for the review! And yes thank you for the review. Although this was written a few years ago, it still means the world that you care <3. Thank you very very very much again!
I hope your feeling better than back then? And you're welcome for the review :]
Aw, this is full of emotion and feels painful. My favourite part was "I already feel as if I am on every drug in the universe, and I am so deep." You really convey how you're feeling through your word choice, and it is overall very expressive.
I hope you're doing all right. I know it gets annoying when people tell you over and over again "it gets better," because it's hard to believe that when you're in a low point in your life. Sometimes you just need someone to understand and tell you it's okay to feel the way you do. And I'm here to tell you that it's okay <3
I'm wishing you much happiness. You've got this!
Thank you so very much! This was actually written a long time ago when I was younger. I thought I should share you know, and plus with all this sickness going around I thought it would be perfect.
Thanks again <3
I%u2019m glad to hear! %u2764%uFE0F If you ever need someone to talk to, I%u2019d love to listen. You%u2019re welcome
Don't quite know what happened to my comment there cx