I’m in a battle and i need to win,
i have to win, my inner me doesn't want to lose
but a part of me have given up so easy
its like my life has no meaning she said.
I’m healthy i sometimes feel so wealthy she said
there is a thing inside of me a battle a war inside of my head
between my heart, soul and mind ... some times i pray to God with my arms
open but it's really hard.
"it is all gonna be alright " i tell myself sometimes
but i know i keep telling myself when this lies when I’m a broken wreck
suicide thoughts is all i get, but I’m afraid of Death
this voice keeps speaking to me , i always seem not to understand a
word it says. Vetitum is what is must be said.
i sometimes feel like i have drapetomania.
its kinda weird
but she is gonna forever say "i got this" even with tears in her eyes