Hi there!
Look at me finally getting to the reviews I promised forever ago. Go me -_-
I like how you've stepped out of the boundaries of a "normal" poem. There are still stanzas and lines. They're just formatted differently. It's always nice to see poems on here that think outside the box. Especially because this is an excerpt from a novel, the format works well. It's written like a piece of prose.
The entire first stanza (I'm just going to stick with poetry terms for this) seems like one complete thought to me. It works well because it's in a stanza together, but the punctuation seems a bit off to me. Each line is like a complete sentence with a different idea. But there's not really a different idea. The speaker is at that age where she has done this this and this. It all flows together, but the periods that are there make it feel choppy. Not to mention the first line, "I guess I'm just to that age." doesn't feel or sound finished to me. Especially since that's the first line we're going to read, you want it to be something strong and solid. Maybe think about mixing up the sentence types and punctuation used in that first paragraph.
I've finally got it through my head that all these guys I mess around with just want sex. They want to enchant me with empty feelings and broken promises and a little booze on the side. They love to watch as I get high off of the taste of their lips and they let me slowly destroy myself, clinging to them. They all ask for sex in the end, and let me be damned if I give it to them.
You mention guys wanting sex twice here. Either tie those two lines together or get rid of one. It's repetitive being so close together.
Sticking with that second stanza, I like the images at the end. There isn't some crazy amount of imagery or overly described metaphors, just a simple image that we all know of: the sheets, the hair, the bottles of alcohol. It screams one night stand. The fact that the speaker is pinning this on every guy she's been with also creates an image in my mind. Not so much that she likes to sleep around, but rather that she's been let down by all those she trusted, even for just those few hours.
A few nitpicks here.
All these friends are fake.
What friends? Is she referring to the men who've taken advantage of her or some other friends that haven't been mentioned? This is the first time that I've felt disconnected from the speaker's story.
All those kind words I've held onto were just that: kind words.
So all of the kind words she's heard are kind words? I get what you're trying to say here, but it doesn't work as well like this. The speaker does go on, in the next stanza, to explain what those kind words really are, but as this line is being read it just causes confusion. If instead you said something like "were just words" or "were just letters scrunched together", that would create a more powerful image.
As I've gotten older I've realized the only person I'll ever be able to trust is myself.
We've gone from the speaker being at this age to them growing up. I get how it relates to the story the speaker is telling us, but it doesn't fit with the story the speaker is focusing on. We're in the present, but are all the sudden thrust back into the past. Any other time it would work, but the speaker is talking of being a certain age and everything that comes with it.
I'm not too fond of the second to last stanza here. It reads too much like a wrap up, like the speaker is just summarizing everything that she's mentioned so far. The only part I really like are these two lines:
it's the only way I'll ever be able to survive. I may hate myself, but at least I'm only hurting myself.
They continue the poem and give us something new. Otherwise this stanza is just repeating what we already know.
Overall this is a strong piece. You've taken quite an intense topic, and topics, and stripped them down to show us the emotion behind them. It's like I'm right there with the speaker as she tells me everything that she's been through, all the bad decisions she's made that have now become good ones/second nature. You were able to bring this to life and I praise you for that.
Keep writing!
**Noelle**
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