Sometimes I feel like I am floating with my feet touching the ground.
It's like waiting for something you never ordered.
Like trying to remember a thought you never had.
I am longing. Longing so desperately for something I can't define.
Something I will never reach and then I go through oppurtunities in my head.
Like if I want to watch a movie or read a certain book or just to back track in my fantasy world.
And then I realize I want to be inspired. I want to be kissed by a muse.
And that works through movies and through books because they touch me. They make me think.
They can bash my mind. But I am getting so exhausted by that.
I long for conversation, for someone to inspire me.
Someone to mess up my view on the world.
Someone to touch me and rattle me.
And I just can't find that someone.