"They will never know
They can never know
I will be alone
Forever
Oh poor old me
What I see they can't see
So I shall be alone
Forever
My heart used to be fluttering
But now my engine's sputtering
I am now alone
Forever"
I marvel at my masterpiece.The black ink curls around the page like embroidery on a dress, perfect and precise. I close the leatherbound book and drop it on my bed with a satisfying thump. I lie back on my bed the star decals I placed long ago are now peeling off my ceiling. It was such a childish thing to do but I could not let them go. Whenever one fell down I would I would reach up and put it back sometimes they would fall down so many times that I would secure them with tape. I was jerked back to reality by a star falling on my nose. I placed it back on my ceiling and fastened it with tape. Glancing at my clock I saw it was almost midnight. I yawned and snuggled into my blankets. I closed my eyes and drifted into sleep.
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I don't want a perfect life I want a happy life- Unknown
In the Vegas lights
Where villains spend the weekend
The deep end
We're swimming with the sharks until we drown
The Vegas lights
The lies and affectations
Sensation
We're winning 'til the curtain's coming down P!ATD Vagas lights
My alarm goes off. I open my eyes slowly and face my clock 7:30 it stared back at me. My vision began to clear and I registered the time. A sense of dread filled my chest I jolted out of bed and ran out of my room. I opened my drawers and noted an absence of clothing at least an absence of suitable clothing. I take inventory: three camp t-shirts, a graphic tee that said shoot for the stars that I had not worn in at least a year and a cardigan that used to be a navy color but is now more of a faded indigo. I settled on the graphic tee and the cardigan. The clothing barely fit due to as my mother said "My newly blooming figure" or as I put it " just one more thing to hide". I take a deep breath as the scent of old memories and Cheetos waft into my nose. I walk down the hallway and descend down the stairs slowly like if I step slow enough I will never have to go. Maybe I won't have to suffer, maybe I will be ok.
To be continued... next chapter coming soon I hope!
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