I don’t know
How it started
Which smile or laugh
Or serious face.
It’s like falling
Down the stairs
You don’t know
Which step you tripped on
All you know
Is you’re face down
On the tile floor.
All you know
Is you’re trying not to cry
Because it will upset your mother
You’re hugging your pillow
So at least that's something
That’s not shaking
Like you are.
You trace the trail
The tears leave
Gently winding down your cheek
Like a dirt road in the country
All the memories swirling
Like the dust.
Where the dust came from
You don’t know
Why it’s there
You don’t know either
There’s no reason to cry
Except maybe for all the dreams
You save up like pennies
Hoping someday
They’ll be worth something.
You cry just to cry
And maybe that’s the point
There is no reason you’re crying
You’re crying because you exist,
Because you feel
And isn’t that enough of a reason?
You’ll quote your tears
To prove you feel
A sign for the universe
That it makes sense
That something is right.
Something is right
Because your breath
Feels like it’s going through the blender
Whirring and swirling
And become something else
As you try to slow it down.
But your weight isn’t enough
To stop this merry-go round
You stumble around
Drunk on the salt in your tears
Drunk on E chords
G chords
And perfume commercials
Hacking up all the little facts
That have taken up root
In your mind
Trying to fit them in a box
When they’re sprawling
Over your bed.
Trying to-
Trying to try
Toss and turn
And let out whatever it is
But the truth is
There’s no getting rid
Of the creature within
It’s part of you.
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