I was devastated at first.
I didn’t know how
To see in the dark
I didn’t have the skill
To navigate around the pillars
And pillars of misery.
I stumbled into everything
There were bruises
All over my heart.
Hope was the salve
I applied, trying to cover up
The permanence of my brokenness.
There were a lot of dishes
Broken beneath me
Shards of glass
Stabbing my feet and hands.
It took a while,
It was painful,
But I changed.
My eyes adjusted
I grew calluses
Grew as hard as a rock.
I learned to smile and nod
When I wanted to curse.
Learned to apologize
When I wanted to cry.
Being loved
Is an exhausting business.
I got used to it,
Though I wish I hadn’t.
I wish I still cried
Every night.
But the pain
Has colored my world
So thoroughly,
Invaded my body
So smoothly,
It is now nothing more
Than an afterthought.
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