I'm here! (Started this review a while ago, but finally had time to finish it!)
So as I said on your wall I really dig this at a conceptual level - like the recovering of stray notes and thoughts and memories that make up grief and getting over someone. It's poetry that definitely mimics thought patterns, because in remembering people in places there's often this feeling of things being left unsorted - and needing to rearrange things back together and that's the sort of feeling I get from these poem fragments.
The trick in a piece like this is working a way to get continuity into the fragments, so that those who don't "get" it at a conceptual level can still appreciate the ark of the story-line - if there's one thing I've learned in poetry is that people seem to love narrative and will either write-off things that don't have it, or write-in narrative if there are enough threads to make a story -
So I'm going to comment on some of the individual parts, then get back to continuity/overall-impressions.
I'm not sure if the opening couplet is strong enough - it's a good image/metaphor, but compared to some of your other pieces it's not at the same level, it felt like it needed one more twist, or an extra piece of imagery to pull us in. I do like that you've got the "you" / "i" voice right from the beginning though - the topic is clear.
I'm going to assume that based on the line at the end that talks about the 7 stages of grief/loss that all of the 7 fragments are maybe arranged in order of that - which I think is pretty epic, and I think you could be more direct in your exploration of that. If that wasn't the intended set-up, then some of my feedback might not be directly relevant.
So in part II. - the denial stage - it's interesting because the speaker still seems very much in love, which would go right along with denial. Here your blend of spiritual, natural, and relational description is just perfect. I can't discern what the difference between the parenthetical lines and non-parenthetical lines are (especially because "just like that" is once in parenthesis and once not), I think it'd be more effective if you parenthesized words that if taken out would alter the meaning of the stanza - like the words "in love" - > so then it could be read "I am in love / before heaven is a witness" or "I am before heaven is a witness" --> I also think in that line "is" ought to be "as".
part III. I love that you start with the word "chronologically" because for me it evokes an appeal to logic, when the rest of the stanza isn't rooted in logic but emotion. Also this idea of someone driving the speaker into a traffic jam and then forcing them to walk is a great image, because it works to portray a moment, but could be read metaphorically as too.
part iv.
the contrasting images of desert and "chill to the bone" are great - because you bring out how the images are actually complimentary. Love the digital and nature language mix too - this stanza is fantastic - only critique is that you repeat "bone" twice, and could maybe switch it up.
part v.
The first two lines really lovely again, like you're actually saying words that don't make like sense prose-wise, but yet they evoke such vivid emotional resonance and still manage to paint a picture - kinda like modern art. This stanza a real bitterness is coming out - like salt in wounds, and then the "all I got" reflection.
I can't figure out a logic to the italics, or even the parenthetical aside. Perhaps the parenthesis is a more critical/logical or hind-sight view. I would almost like more parenthesis so used in more stanzas so it would be easier to discern a pattern.
Also not catching the "two syllables" reference - is it the two syllables of their name? or a specific word? A bit too vague to interpret for me there (though I admit I'm intrigued).
This stanza also felt like it mapped really well on to the Kubler-Ross model of the 7 stages of grief - with the depression, lonliness, reflection all coming through.
part vi.
The image of falling asleep on the floor is really interesting - because it puts a big question mark up for the reader. Like why are they sleeping on the floor - have they been kicked out of a shared bed, are they sick, are they just too distraught to get to their room, are they too tired to function anymore. Also the descriptor of "masochist" makes it seem like it's the speaker's fault that they're in love with pain - which puts an interesting reflection on the rest of the poem so far.
One part I didn't like is that "yours" in the line "and that song has become yours" isn't clear if it's talking about the speaker or the subject because the stanza doesn't use an "I" before that line. It also seems a bit too out of nowhere - a reference of a song somewhere else would give us something to tie us to it. I really like the blunt "this is not love" - from both a narrative perspective, and an ethical perspective - that just the internal note that this stanza isn't romanticizing pain itself, is helpful.
part vii.
Okay, I'm in love with the first four lines here. I like that you hold off on the stages of grief reference til the end because it makes us read it again - and part of the thing about grief is it's not always a ladder but a cycle so being forced to read it again, actually achieves that effect. And also <3 PLUTO being the header of this stanza is so nicely symbolic - like it's the forgotten planet, that is no planet anymore, the conclusion that does not conclude, and since the final stage of grief is "acceptance" it's just really cutting - like maybe the speaker doesn't completely get to acceptance.
Also the word play with "stillness" and then using "still" is fantastic.
I also like the idea of an opposite side of a tomb, though I wonder if calling it "snow-blinding" distracts from that beautiful image too much. had to look up what the word "afterimage" meant, and yeah, I'm wondering if that final stanza has almost too much there, like I found it difficult to follow - though at it's heart I think saying "I'm still looking for the pieces you've left, but I'm scared of what's on the other side of this tomb" is really exceptional - it's not just heartbreak, but it's like, the speaker is asking, "what comes next? and am I ready for whatever is after this emotional/spiritual/relational death? because I don't want to move".
Overall Narrative
I think as a reader there is definitely a sense of emotional continuity, though it is really difficult to parse out a narrative from it. I actually really appreciated stanza three a lot because it gave us what looked like the most straight-forward concrete image, that could also be taken symbolically. Some of the other images, felt almost too overloaded to be able to see - and I wonder if there'd be a value of taking another stanza and sort of stripping down some of the adjectives and turns to give the reader another really direct image.
The story / emotion that came through was a grappling with a deeply felt loss, where the speaker is still holding on and working through the emotions, like the subject is still present, and they're reliving the moments and memories. There's sadness, anger, resentment, and then in the end - maybe even hesitation of whether they wanted to be rid of the subject.
Continuity
The continuity of the poem as far as images and themes wasn't immediately apparent, besides the bookends of winter/snow - but it looks like on closer inspection you do have quite a few threads of images that run through the poem - like visceral body/bone descriptions, warm vs cold, paths/travel, and movement/progress.
I felt like having that one stanza off-set to the right and then the other edged in, took away the feel of this being one coherent piece. And am wondering what your reasoning behind the off-set was. It could be interesting to make the poem as a circle with the stanzas each being set off in a circle - so when you finish part seven, you begin the poem again, though that might also defeat some of the downward imagery that the poem is using.
I found the italics also to not feel that meaningful, but I appreciated the other formatting that you used, and like I said at the beginning, I think dividing into seven parts was really smart.
Sorry the thoughts are a bit scattered! This was a really enjoyable poem to read, and I'll be thinking on some of these lines for a bit. Please let me know if you had specific questions about my review - or wanted feedback on something I didn't get to.
best,
alliyah
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