Author's note: This is meant to be told by my thoughts when having a sensory episode. Some things may be unclear to the reader because of this.
What the hell am I looking at? Can that even be described as a shape? Why is there so many of them? This cluster of irregular shapes looks like diseased eyeballs in a blender.
*The episode begins*
Everybody is yelling at eachother like a bunch of madmen. Their invasive volume and comments intrude my brain and mash it. This cluster of irregular shapes is swallowing me whole. Now my skin is reacting, shaking beneath the surface and itching like it's got a rash. I WANT TO CLAW IT OFF!
How can one person be a combination of everything that sets me off. Is this even natural or does she know what she is doing to me? SHE IS JUMPING AROUND UPSTAIRS AGAIN!!! GOD HELP ME!!!
The cooling sensation of the cold seat in the car feels amazing on my skin, raw from clawing.
Floaters are such beauteous things. What's even cooler is only one person can see a unique set of them. I shall shake my eyes around and play with my floaters!!
Animals make me so happy. They are just so different from people, but in a good way. They are much better than the miserable humans I'm surrounded by.
My mind is like a pot hole right now. thoughts and sensations are like cars and weather; each breaking my mind down into little pieces of pavement.
God is so good. Even right now, when I am acting like a intolerable, anxious human being, he is right here with me. There is truly nobody else like him.
I WANT TO RIP MY SKIN OFF!!!!!!
There is a fat lady in the Dunkin Donuts window. What if something bad happens? Like a car drives through the building. She would be the first one hit! Oh, I shouldn't be thinking like this, it will only make me sad. GUILT!!! GUILT!!!! GUILT!!!!
All these thoughts and sensations combined in my head in a time period of 5 minutes. You can probably see how this can be overwhelming!