It was all too much. The dream was spinning, making my head hurt. I closed my eyes until it stopped, and when I opened them again I was in a completely different setting. this time I was in the middle of an elementary schools playground. The little girl was there, still the only thing in color. I tried to walk over, but my feet wouldn't move. I just had to sit and watch.
The little girl-er my sister was holding a coloring book and some crayons, standing nervously in the middle of chaos that was called recess. She turned her head, obviously looking for something, and when she found it her eyes widened. Some boys had started running towards her. I could see the fear in her eyes as the young boys knocked the coloring book out of her hands and when they looked at her, for a few split seconds I saw the brutality in their eyes. The fist came flying forward, the girl flinched, and took the hit.
Another fist came flying in my big sister’s face, then another, and another. Until she had blood dripping down her pale face, turning it bright red. The boys left her in a crumpled heap on the cement ground. It was agony just sitting there and watching her pinch the bridge of her nose and assess the damage done to her left eye. I knew I would have cried, or screamed, or done something to get myself help if I were in her situation. But even little first grader Alexis was stronger than I thought. She picked herself up, and walked to the bathroom.
As soon as she got there though, the dream started to spin again, and after a split second I was back in the field of flowers. I realized I could move again and immediately started asking questions to the same little girl who was standing in front of me.
I was so busy doing this that I didn't know that the little girl had aged up. Instead of a young first grader, I now saw a tall fifteen year old girl. This girl I recognized from the wonderful memories that came with my childhood. This was Alexis, there was no denying that.
Alexis spoke and said, “You're my little sister right? Well, I guess I should start showing you around!”
It was weird, hearing that voice again, one I hadn't heard in a while.
One of my favorite memories of that voice is when we were sitting on a blanket on the beach, just her and I. She was singing, and I was watching the waves as they crashed down on the sandy shore. I always took that voice for granted, If only I knew, I would have kept it more special.
I hadn’t paid attention to the girl, my big sister. And I wish I did, because she disappeared. I started walking in a random direction, hoping that I would find her. It didn’t take long for the scenery to change, I was now in a dense forest. The sounds of the forest were quiet, almost muted. And I could feel a pair of eyes on me, but anytime I turned around they seemed to melt away. I walked around until I started to hear a new sound, water. I started jogging towards the sound of the rushing waterfall. I figured she would be here, Alexis’ favorite things are waterfalls, or were her favorite things.
And as I suspected Alexis was there, but in an absurd place. At the top of the waterfall, getting ready to dive. I called out her name, but she didn't hear me and dove. As soon as she hit the water the dream spun again. This time the dizziness was tolerable, but still gave me a headache.
By the time I opened my eyes I was once again in another setting. This time I was at the high school pool, used for the swim team and other water sports. I saw fifteen year old Alexis in her dive suit, coming out of the locker rooms. She was on her way to the diving board when she stopped and turned around to see an eighteen year old boy creeping up behind her. I thought he was going to hurt her, but when she saw him she just laughed.
“Hey creeper” she said in a sarcastic tone. “Hey watergirl” the man said back, “I thought you would be here”. “I always am” replied Alexis, and she walked back to where he was standing and straight up kissed him. The man hadn't seen at all surprised by this sudden act of affection and kissed back. I did not remember Alexis having a boyfriend before, she said that she wasn't going to date until she was eighteen, but in this memory, she was on the sophomore swim team, not the senior one.
After they were done the boy went over to the lap pool to swim, and Alexis headed over to the diving board. Oddly enough I could see silent tears running down her face, as she dove into the water.
The dream shifted and I started to see the clip of Alexis and the man in a dim room together. There was music playing downstairs but it was faint, as if they were at a party.
“Colin, I can't do this anymore, especially in the state you’re in right now,” Alexis calmly said, “you were a great guy at first, but you’ve changed”
The man just stared at her for a minute but then in a cold voice said, “Alexis you can't leave me now, I need you, and you are caught up in this business too, you are going to get us in trouble.”
“And that is exactly why I cannot be with you anymore, You dont treat me right, you are doing illegal things, this is a sensible decision on my part!” Alexis shouted, “I don't care if I get in trouble, as long as you go down too!”
Alexis stormed out and ran downstairs to leave. She got in her car and took a deep breath, and then a sigh. She started driving, but wasn't going back to our house, she took a route that leads to the police station. But before she got there a car started following us. I couldn't turn my head to see who it was, but alexis seemed worried. She drove faster and so did the car, when she stopped it did too. As she was about to get on the main road, The car picked up speed and rammed us.