The wind whipped at my hair like an angry beast, whispering dark secrets into my ears. The street was empty; the sky overcast. The papers that had rattled free from the notice board on the wall fluttered all around me, and one flew into the back my leg. I picked it up, and sighed.
Another missing poster – as if I needed another reminder.
His deep brown eyes seemed to be staring at me unusually seriously, and the mouth that was usually so smiley drooped down at the corners. His dark hair, for once, looked neat.
Why did they have to choose this picture?
Underneath, there were all the little details: his name, his age, the date he went missing…
Ronny. My best friend.
A deep depression crept over me, a void of darkness that swallowed my soul.
His disappearance punctured a second hole in my splintered heart.
My mother’s death provoked the first.
She died of cancer when I was six years old. People say loosing a mother when you’re young is… easier in a way.
They’re one hundred percent wrong.
I still remembered the night she died clearly.
I was tucked up in bed, waiting for my father to come home from visiting her. I’d been told I couldn’t visit her any more a few weeks earlier because it would make me ‘sad’. However, she always drew little pictures for my father to take home to me – and that was why I so looked forward to my father coming back from his visits.
I listened happily to the sound of our car coming up our drive, and then to my father storming up the stairs. I suppose it was weird he didn’t dismiss my babysitter as he usually did when he returned, but I was too excited about what picture my mother would’ve drawn for me tonight. Colourful fairies, like the last night, or maybe a small elf like the one she’d given me the night before that?
He opened my door slowly and walked in. It was then, in the dim blue light shining from my nightlight, that I noticed there were tears streaming down his face. It was scary – adults didn’t cry. I asked him what was wrong, but he didn’t say a word. Instead, he ripped back my bed covers and pulled me into his arms. I kept on asking him what was wrong, but his mouth remained shut, the tears now falling right down to his chin. Finally, we reached the back door that lead to our small garden.
“Naomi, do you remember mummy saying that she was going to go to heaven soon?” he asked suddenly, the tears falling into his mouth as he spoke. I nodded, not knowing what to say – not knowing what he was trying to tell me. He walked out to the garden with me and set me down. My bare feet turned blue as soon as they reached the wet ground. I shuddered in my pyjamas, wondering what daddy was doing taking me out on a cold night like this.
“Look, darling, look at the stars.” he whispered. I looked up, observing the twinkling, glittering dots made entirely of gold. “Do you see that one, over there?” he asked, pointing up towards the biggest and brightest star.
“Yes,” I whispered, suddenly forgetting that I was cold in the eerie silence.
“That one’s mummy, Naomi. She waving at us from heaven, like she said she would.”
He started sobbing, then.
Was this trued, what he was saying?
Was it true that mummy was in heaven now?
Was my sweet, bald mother who drew me beautiful pictures and sung me beautiful songs really up there now?
I knew, even at that tender age, that I would never see her again.
Great, rattling tears began to emerge from my chest.
I wiped my eye furiously, angry that my pain was still so harsh. I should count myself lucky – my father’s was even harsher. Even being near him was dangerous – the agony in his heart too much for me to share.
I paused by Ronny’s house. How many times I’d walked up that path… The front door banged open and I saw Heidi, his mother, walking out, a bag of rubbish in her hand. I tried to duck so she wouldn’t see me, but her eager eyes never missed anything. She’d helped me and my father a lot since my mother died, almost acting like a second mother. However, when her darling Ronny disappeared, she began to act strange – as if by pretending I was Ronny, everything would be okay.
“Lovely! I haven’t seen you in a while!” she cried, rushing up to me and instantly hugging me. I put my arms awkwardly around her waist, wishing I’d taken the other route home.
“You should come round more often, sweetheart. I love you! I was thinking of making a cake for you yesterday, but I just couldn’t seem to see you around!”
I tried not to look into her desperate eyes. I knew if I did, I’d start feeling sorry for her. Just then, my phone started ringing. I held back a sigh of relief.
“Heidi, dad’s probably getting worried. I have to go.” I said quietly. I struggled out of her grip and rushed down the road, answering my mobile.
“Hello?” I breathed.
“It’s me.” A crackling voice said.
I froze.
I recognised that voice.
Ronny.
Suddenly, two things happened.
One: the phone line went dead. A deafening beep replaced his quiet voice. Two: I heard the sound of a gunshot behind me, followed by a murderous, roaring pain rushing through my pounding heart.
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