“You can never be a psychic if your such a defensive pessimist Charlie”
Fuck that.
All his life Charlie worked to disprove his mum’s psychic visions. Now, with every pessimistic bone in his body, he saw into the swirling orange-yellows of the future. He could see he was going to die.
Crawling on all fours, through the virus filled darkness of his apartment, Charlie couldn’t help but hallucinate. The purple fuzz crowded the corners of his eyes. The light reflecting off water, bleeding with the smell of Indian incense sticks. It mock rainbows as it lay floating dead with oil.
Troubled times. The army of matchsticks were mobilising. They were getting ready for the coup. The charm of Captain Chemo was wearing off. Wearing off on everyone. “World war II has got a new life” thought Charlie. “Fuck that.” He whispered under his breath. He had seen worse in Vietnam. World war II? Those German captains can kiss his ass.
But he knew he couldn’t lie. The razors had started to smile. The mush of blood and hair from the back of his head was bringing Charlie down.
”Sagen Sie ein Gebet für die Armee von Matchsticks, Leutnant Dirkman?””
He wasn’t going to let them get to him. “Prayer? “ Charlie screamed. “You German pricks, I’ve seen hell in Vietnam. What the fuck do you know? Now you ask for a prayer? At my weakest hour? Fuck you.”
No church bells rang for Charlie’s tears. The band began to play their favourite tunes. 1, 2. 1, 2, 3, 4. Charlie had been off the wagon. He convinced himself he was. IT was his mother’s dying wish. And if he did drink, he knew she would know. But the large eyes on the streets and the intrusive lights of the night seem to scream to tell a love story when the smelt beer in his breath.
Charlie was dying and all he wanted was a light. To light for his cigarette. So he could die a happy man. He was going to get high with a little help from his friends.
” Wurden Sie mögen mich Ihren Freund zusammenrufen HIV?.. Er vermißt Sie überhaupt soviel...?”
Grease seemed to have leaked onto his floor. He couldn’t grip it with his hands. Charlie fell to the ground and as he did, he could hear the sycronized steps of the army.
” Guilt? You will never kill me with guilt you bastards. You are all prisoners. Prisoners of responsibility. I celebrated responsibility. I celebrated freedom. You know I did. This world will knows I did.”
” Sodomized alle Männer Sie zurückgekommen, um you?..Are u zu frequentieren, das diese Welt ängstlich ist, würden wünschen Sie getragen nie an allen? Hallo? Hallo?”
Charlie couldn’t take it anymore. His brain had become mush and his lungs groaned in pain. Charlie pleaded with the captain. ”hey, man. Come on now. Ask them stop marching will you. I’m dying. Give me a light will you. Come on man.”
The motel next door had finally got their lights working. The white-blue neon seemed to fill the room. Charlie looked around to see that he had become part of fabric of the dark purple tiles of his floor. He had finally conceded defeat. And tonight he was too dumbstruck to thank his lucky stars. His comrades where there to exasperate his passing. Tonight, they sang a song of everything he didn’t want to know. Captain chemo had begun to laugh.
” Wachen Sie auf! Mommys Haupt, wenigen Charlie.’
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