Sandor
It occurred to him, somewhere around the fifth weird look in his direction from the soldiers he was discussing security with, that he must look like hell, rumpled and just a bit disheveled from going straight from the Dancer to Garis then Casie. A couple pointed looks at his injured hand were only more hints for him to stop ordering people around and go back to his rooms to at least get changed and shave, and he resigned himself to it quickly enough, spurred on by the throbs of pain his hand was sending up along his arm.
Punching that mirror had been pretty stupid, in retrospect, even it had seemed like the right idea at the time, what with Derrick dying and all. Damn if the fact that he’d been wrong about that wasn’t enough to almost make him ignore the headache and pain.
That good mood was not even wiped out by the unexpected sight that greeted him when he arrived to his room, and he took the time to close the door behind him before turning to face the two women, eyes seeking his sister’s and tamping down on the urge to fiddle with his shirt in a hopeless attempt to smooth out the creases. He didn’t like that look to her, but what he’d done to find himself on its receiving end, he had no idea. “Arianna? How long have you been here?” A quick glance to Marie, ever faithfully at Ari’s side, only confused him more; he had no idea what to make of her expression either.
“Long enough. Where were you?” Oh, that was the Ari-angry-at-him tone alright. What the hell?
“Doing my job.” Not that she ever seemed to appreciate it. “What brings you here? You’ve never bothered before.” Or if she had, only rarely. Visiting someone made it so hard to ignore them, after all.
And he really didn’t like that look. Wait for it—“I’ve been down to the crypt.” Oh shit. “Where is Derrick.”
Oh yeah, he didn’t like that look at all. The litany of curses running through Sandor’s mind that exact moment might have made even Garis raise an eyebrow, and the man had seen him at his worst. Time to play dumb, why did she even have to go check on him godammit—
“I’m not you, Ari—I don’t play games.” At least bringing up the bite for that retort wasn’t hard. The panic and the anger at that incident were all too easy to reach for, especially relit by Ari’s oh-so-nice dropping of that bomb on him. “If something’s wrong, then look to dear little Rosalie. She’s been so good at following your example.”
“Don’t play dumb with me, Sandor.” Urge to back up rising, and repressed mercilessly. Now was not the time to avert his eyes or show weakness of any kind. “You know who the assassin is,” she’s bluffing, she can’t possibly know that, “and I want his name. Now.”
Like she had any room to talk, with that woman working for her. He scowled, fairly bristling in anger. “If I knew who’d killed Derrick, do you really think I’d have let it pass?” He hadn’t, technically, but she didn’t know that. He hoped. “He was my brother more than he was yours, blood be damned. I’d have the assassin’s head on a pike already.”
“Unless it was one of your men who did it. You’ve always been too fond of the rabble.” Too close, she’s getting too close, he snarled—“Are you implying I would let—”
Ari cut him off. “I am saying the assassin was one of yours, and you let him walk away.” A flash of blue eyes, sharp and irate. “I am saying that the man who almost killed me was one of your guards—one of those supposed to keep us safe.” That sneer didn’t look good either. “Say, I hear one of them has been rather injured lately. You know who I’m speaking of, yes? You’ve been to see him, after all.”
The words he wanted to say were not of the kind to improve the situation, so he kept them in, corralled them in with the fear and the dread, the wild roil of she knows now the game’s up you are such a worthless idiot shit she knows we are so screwed. The anger and the protectiveness insisted on coming out to play though, and there was no holding those back, not when they rose so easily to thread through his posture, his clenched fists, his voice. “You keep him out of this.”
And quickly, before that victorious gleam to her eyes could make it anywhere further. Make it look like she’d only hit a nerve, instead of the heart. “He has nothing to do with your—our games, so back off.”
“Why so defensive, then?” That was the most dangerous Ari just there, smirking up at him and so confident, so sure of herself.
“My personal life is none of your business.”
“It is when mine is at risk!” She was so close now. Almost close enough to touch, or to hurt, or just to hold. He’d never been able to decide when it came to her. Right now there was little doubt as to which way the balance was tipping.
“It’s always about you, isn’t it Ari? It’s always your life, your regrets, your position; you have to be the first, at everything, and you can't ever lose, can you?—and everything, everyone else an afterthought—” And he shouldn’t have been airing dirty laundry in front of Marie, but screw that, Ari had brought the conflict here; let her reap the consequences of it. “You were the one to ask for our brother’s death, so don’t you dare blame anything on me right now, and keep the people I”—his voice betrayed him, caught; okay not that word—“care about out of your petty play for power!”
He hated how his breathing had taken that slightly ragged edge that normally only came with exhaustion, or how he could just feel control slipping from his precarious hold on it. He'd hit a nerve though, he could see it in how she was standing just a less rigidly, or how her look had lost some of its ice. "That's how it is, then?", and he did not know if it was a declaration of war or a truce.
Oh Ari. How it could have been so easy for them to—
“Listen. You know me—you know I have never been any good at lying, don’t you?” Unlike you, he wanted to say, but didn’t. She looked at him for a moment, wary but not denying it, so he continued, “So look at me, and tell me if I’m lying to you when I say this: I had absolutely no say in whatever happened to Derrick, nor any idea of it.”
It was no lie, please believe me—and when she nodded, a curt tilt of the head that could have been dismissal as much as acknowledgment, his breath caught in his throat.
“What of your man’s injuries, then?” And she just had to ask that, didn’t she, bring the guilt and his faults up.
His hand hurt.
“I have something of a temper, Ari.” That’s right, laugh at me all you want. He hated it, but now it was a fair price to pay to dampen the suspicions, if only for a while. “And we had a... disagreement.”
“Of course. Only you can hurt the ones you care about, isn’t it so?”
Low blow, sister. Low blow.
“Ari,” he said, and was surprised at how steady his voice was, all things considered. “Have I ever raised a hand to you?” He looked at her, caught the surprise and the outrage that flashed over her features before they were covered under that damnable mask of hers, and nodded when she shook her head, no. “I do not want today to be the first time, so please. Stop talking, and leave me alone.”
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