Even though I've effectively put a moratorium on my working of The Zenith Cycle, I still felt like posting the prologue for the first book (Zenith) just to see if the ideas are sound, and get some critique and feedback. In particular...I'm aware that my prose isn't that great. I tend to be a little too verbose and awkward and I must wean myself from adverb abuse. Still, I'm trying to improve every day.
Without further adieu...the first 3.5 pages of the Prologue of Zenith (the whole thing is six pages Times New Roman point twelve in Microsoft Word, a bit long):
In the past few days, a strange, disquieting feeling had fallen upon Zenith. It crept up upon him during the night, when he would sit alone performing self-maintenance; it snuck into his mind during those times of the day when he would idly allow his thoughts to roam. He could find no words to describe this feeling, which unsettled him even more—he, with his massive databank of hundreds of thousands of words, unable to describe his own emotions?
But even if Zenith couldn’t name the feeling, he felt that he understood where it came from—it came from that man, from Master.
Master who would smile so languidly and recline in his couch as his every need and desire was waited on by his fleet-footed, obedient, sleek new models. These were models based, superficially, off of Zenith, but Zenith was intelligent enough to know that they weren’t him. No, they were better than him, faster, stronger, more efficient, more obedient. Compared to them, Zenith might as well have been scrap.
Which begged the question of why Master even still wanted him around. He should be going to the scrap yard. The new models were superior to him, and Zenith knew this well. How many times had he entered Master’s private room to see the familiar auburn-haired man surrounded by all of his elegant new models, happily accepting their service? Then Zenith would simply stand there, silent and useless and secretly stewing inside with jealousy.
A jealousy that the new models couldn’t feel. They couldn’t feel anger or misery or happiness or hate or hope or fear or anything. Master had removed the emotions capability from the new models. “It was cumbersome,” he explained when Zenith had inquired, looking up from his latest programming work to smile at Zenith, eyes inscrutable, as always, behind his green-tinted shades. Zenith had nodded and accepted this, for he, like the new models, was at least programmed to obey.
Not that that had even answered Zenith’s question…the question that had become that unpleasant feeling deep within Zenith. He wished to know why Master hadn’t scrapped him already, rather than keep around an imperfect model, a “cumbersome” failure.
And because despite all of his fruitless searching through his massive mental encyclopedia, despite all the times that he had run his superprocessors throughout the entire night in a vain attempt to find the answer, Zenith decided to seek the answer not from himself, but from his friends.
“Isn’t it obvious, Zenith?” his friend Brit had told him when he had asked. “It’s because he spent years making you. Trying to make the perfect android. The perfect form. Emotions, beauty, balance, strength, everything. He spent seven years. Seven long, loving years. You're not a line or a model or anything, Zenith. You are—Zenith. You're the culmination of years and years of his hard work. He can't scrap you...not after all you stand for."
“Then why…” Zenith had sighed in dull reply, “why does he ignore me all the time? He never even looks at me anymore.”
Brit had been at a complete loss to explain this. Hale, even more so.
“Tch, he’s just a jerk!” Hale had said in his impatient way, hands on his hips. “Look, you can move in with me, if you want to.”
But Zenith had declined. He knew, after all, that his rightful place was by the side of Master, the man who had created him, no matter how much pain it caused Zenith to see Master as he was now, always surrounded by his new models. Never mind that uncomfortable sensation gnawing within Zenith’s circuits, eating at him inside, the feeling that he still couldn’t name and didn’t quite understand.
And if he was really the culmination of years and years of hard work...of his Master's desperate tinkerings...of his Master's longing to create a perfect android...then why had Master taken away the one thing that had set Zenith apart? Why did the new models feel no emotion? Why had Master finally decided that emotions were "cumbersome"?
Zenith couldn’t answer this question, and thinking about it simply made him feel worse.
“What a jerk!” screamed Hale one hot summer day, pumping his fist into the air. “I really can’t believe him. How did he i]get[/i] this way? Seriously, slamming the door in the face of one of his best friends—”
“He didn’t slam the door, exactly,” explained Magnus in his slow, calm way, shrugging his massive shoulders. “Really, he was very polite. He’s just busy, is all.”
“Too busy to play with his friends?” snarled Hale, who would not be taken off this track so easily. “What’s the matter with that guy, huh? Damn red-headed jerk--"
“Look, Hale…there’s no need to get so offended,” said Brit with a sigh. “He is a programmer. He can’t just play with us all day. Remember, North Corporation contracted him out to write that security program for them? I'm sure he's busy doing that."
Hale, Brit, Magnus, and Zenith were together in the old playground located at the periphery of their neighborhood. Due to the heat, no one else was out—all were barricaded inside their enormous noisy Castles, enjoying the air conditioning and watching funfeeds and playing with systems. Any passers-by—not that there were any in the dead summer heat—would have considered the four insane to be hanging out in the ancient playground rather than enjoying themselves inside as normal youths did. After all, only the old fools from the nearby retirement community ever visited the playground, where they sat and reminisced about their memories of a time when children had played with swings and slides instead of systems and androids.
Brit pushed her swing back and forth, at times shaking her head to clear her brown bangs from her eyes, the chains creaking and squeaking ominously. Zenith sat in the swing beside her, scuffing the sand. Magnus sat at the top of the slide, though he didn't go down--the weight of his huge form would most likely cause it to collapse. Hale was occupied with pushing the merry-go-round back and forth, over and over again, ignoring its clanks and groans of protest.
"Sure, sure, I remember, but still,” said Hale, scowling. “It wouldn't kill him to get off his programming high horse and at least talk to us for a little. Remember the days when he used to play with us all the time? He sure as ‘granfalloon’--"
“Hale!” protested both Brit and Zenith at the same time. Hale folded his arms and shot them a dirty look, but quieted down.
“All right, all right, heck, then. He sure as ‘heck’ had all the time in the world to play with us, even if he was working on androids or codes or whatever. All the time, if we asked, he'd drop what he was doing and come play with us. Wht happened to that?"
“Right…” said Brit, an almost wistful note to her voice, gazing off in the distant pottery-blue sky as if trying to wish a long-gone memory back into existence. “We used to come here all the time…almost every day.”
“Yeah, that’s right,” said Hale, excitement lighting up in his blue eyes. “No one else ‘cept the old geezers would ever come, and gee they didn’t even play, they just sat there and went on and on about the ‘good old days’, fat lot they knew.”
“But we’d play ourselves silly,” said Brit, raising a hand to her chin and letting out a small giggle. “I mean, it wasn’t all that safe. I remember he broke the monkey bars once, trying to use them. Remember that? Great thing he wasn’t hurt too bad…”
"Zenith saved him," said Hale, a sudden anger entering his voice. "Remember? Zenith patched him up until the doctors could come and take 'im to the hospital. Now he's forgotten about all that, hasn't he? Conveniently erased his memory, has he?" An ugly scowl crossed his face.
“Come now, Hale,” said Magnus, shaking his great head. “I don’t think he’s forgotten. He’s just too busy right now, you know? North Corp--"
"Master remembers," cut in Zenith more starkly.
"Well, you'd think he'd show a bit of...I don't know...say...gratitude?" Hale's scowl deepened and he gave the merry-go-round a vicious spin. It clanked and groaned as it spun, and flakes of rust fell in a shower from it. Watching them, somehow, caused that strange disquieting sensation to snake up within Zenith once more, and he shook his head to clear it.
"I am glad I have my self-maintenance program," he said after some length, staring entranced at the reddish flakes of rust littering the sand, pathetically, like so many dead leaves. "Master has stopped performing even basic maintenance on me."
Hale issued a noise that sounded a lot like, "jerk."
"He used to care so much, didn't he?" said Brit, her dark eyebrows knitting together in worry. "What happened to him? He said...he told me once...he said that you were his pride and joy. That he wouldn't be able to stand it if something happened to you...but now...can people really change that much in such a short space of time?" She let out a pensive sigh, staring up into the clear, cloudless blue sky.
"People change," said Magnus, in the manner of sage dispensing wisdom.
"But not so much so quickly!" said Brit in protest.
"It was his visit to Dr. Engelfield," said Zenith, seizing on a memory that had, without explanation, risen from his data banks. "That was it. He visited Engelfield one day—do you remember?—we were—”
"Right! We were exploring the swamp!" said Hale, leaping off the merry-go-round in a sudden motion, causing even more flakes of rust to fly from it. "Yeah. I remember. What fun! I caught Newton there—”
"Shut up, Hale," snarled Brit. "Zenith's speaking."
"Sorry," said Hale, a sheepish smile crossing his face. Zenith gave the blonde boy a slight smile.
"I am not bothered, Hale...but yes. It was that day at the swamp. Master visited Engelfield. When he came back, he told me...of all the marvels Dr. Engelfield had. All the different kinds of androids Engelfield had developed. And I think Master was a little worried. He had created only one android, and Engelfield had dozens. Shortly after, Master began to develop his first new model." Zenith couldn't keep the bitter note out of his voice, nor could he quash the feeling that had risen up with a sudden violence at his recollections of Master and Engelfield.
"Engelfield?" said Hale, his loud voice echoing across the empty playground. "Who needs Engelfield? He's just a big jerk. Just another granfallooning jerk."
"Hale!" snapped Brit.
"Engelfield is widely respected," said Magnus, still in the manner of an observant sage.
"Doesn't change that he's a jerk," said Hale, a dark scowl marring his face. "And so is—that guy. He's a great big jerk too. Just tossing his dearest creation aside 'cause he's jealous of Engelfield...and then spending all his time with his stupid new models while his friends get lonelier and lonelier—”
"We can survive without him," said Magnus. “And I said, he’s just—”
"It isn't the same, though," said Brit, and she let out a sad sigh.
"Let Master be Master," said Zenith, unable to keep the faint note of bitterness out of his voice. He stood up, ignoring his swing's creak of protest. He had gone to his friends in the hopes of finding a reprieve from the one subject he had wanted to avoid above all else, but he had been naïve in assuming his friends wouldn’t be pursuing it. "It is getting late, and your metabolisms cannot take much more of this heat, correct? Shall we go?"
"Yeah, my place!" shouted Hale.
"We went to your place yesterday, and the day before, too," snapped Brit in protest, placing her hands on her hips. "Why don't we go to my place?"
"Or mine," said Magnus, but no one listened to him. They were all already heading down the wide asphalt street to Brit’s house. Magnus sighed, scratched his head, and followed.
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It's not finished yet~
A note about the word "granfalloon"--it's a reference to the book Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut, an excellent book by a brilliant author that you should all read. "Granfalloon" in that context means "false karass", a karass being a group of people brought together by fate. Examples of granfalloons included the United States of America and Exxon-Mobil. And so on. In this story I just use it as a general curse word equivalent to...the f word maybe.
Honest critique is appreciated.
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EDIT: I've added the italics that need to be there. EDITEDIT: Made further, more sweeping, edits to this. I'm amazed at my adverb abuse.
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