Why won't the words come?
I know how I feel,
and yet they are still stuck inside my head.
I know what I want to write,
what I've wanted to let out
this entire time,
so why won't the pen move?
I know I've wanted to tell you
how much you've hurt me,
how lying to me and cheating on me
made me feel so worthless.
I wanted to let you know how it feels
to think your truly valueless.
How it takes away a piece of the puzzle
that creates you.
I wanted you to know
what you did to my heart,
after I finally trusted you
and let you in.
I want you to see the broken remains,
of what you left behind for me to clean up.
Something that no piece of tape
can hold together anymore.
I want you to hear
the exhausted sobs
I suffer through every night,
because I know you're not there,
and I know you're never coming back.
I want you to feel the emptiness,
the numbness that comes
after I try to release the pain
with a blade I used, oh so many years ago.
I want you to understand
that you were like all of the others,
the people I dated in my past,
except you were possibly worse.
I want you to know how it feels
when you just walk away
without sharing that special embrace
with me.
How it feels like you're taking
part of my soul with you
when you walk away from me,
tearing me to shreds in the process.
I wish the words would come to me,
and I could tell you how much I love you
and how I miss you.
How much I will always miss you.
I want you to know
how much I want to move on,
and how I want the pieces of my life
to come back together.
I want you to know that being friends
just isn't enough anymore
and how it hurts me so much more
this way.
I want you to know that
I deal with this agony every day
because I love you, and I always will.
And I will always hope
that one day
you will love me too.
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