I wake to something pounding in my ear. It is a steady beating noise that is really loud. I sit up and cover my ears with my hands. I can hear Alex breathing. It is really loud too. My brain is pounding against my skull.I lay down and cover my head with a pillow, trying to block out all sound.
Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart -Winnie the Pooh
It feels like Alex is screaming in my ear. I shake my head from under the pillow and place my hand on his. My stomach aches too. Then it hits me, what it I am pregnant? I remember Gemini said she had a test. I do not know if she ment it, or was kidding. Now I am dying to know if I am pregnant. I dear myself out of bed and put a jacket on over my pajamas. I put on a pair or slippers and head to there room. "I will be back in a second." I say. before he can say anything, I walk out the door. I walk to there room and knock on the door. I hold my head and wait for someone to answer the door. Jason opens the door and looks confused. "I need to speak to Gemini." I say. He nods and opens the door and calls her in. He goes into another room. "I need one of those tests."
Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart -Winnie the Pooh
She gets out of bed and dresses quick, heading out the door after telling me she'll be right back. Confused, I get out of bed and take my bag into the bathroom, deciding to take a shower while she's gone.
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Someone knocks on the door and I yawn, answering it and finding Taylor.
"I need to speak to Gemini," she says.
Oh...That's why you're here.
I nod and open the door, calling Gem. I leave the two alone and try to occupy myself elsewhere.
I'm never what I like I'm double sided And I just can't hide I kind of like it When I make you cry 'Cause I'm twisted up, twisted up Inside
When I hear the door is for me, I I quickly get my clothes on before having to meet with her. She enters the room and I sit on my bed, she looked like she could drop dead at any moment by her looks. Actually she looks like me when I have one of those drinking nights with a few of the fella's, I smile at her as I can almost guess what she was here for.
"Let me guess, pregnancy test?" I ask.
An angel, a knight, a man who will bring light to where there is only darkness, I am the Morning Star, the Bringer of Light, hail to me as I am King Lucifer!
An angel, a knight, a man who will bring light to where there is only darkness, I am the Morning Star, the Bringer of Light, hail to me as I am King Lucifer!
I take a deep breath and walk into the bathroom, closing the door behind me. I find the test in the bathroom. A few moments pass and I wait for the results. My heart rate gets faster as I wait. Am I ready to be a mom? I want to be a mom, but am I ready? Just the thought of being a mom makes me happy. I do want to be a mom, I do. The test results click and I take a deep breath before looking at it. I open my eyes and the test results read negative. My heart sinks into my chest.
I throw the tests away and run out the door. I pass Gem and Jason, not even able to say a word. Not wanting to be around anyone right now, I run to the secret place. I ignore all the weird looks from people and run through the plaza. I reach the secret place and burst through the doors. I walk over to the couch and lay for. I curl into a ball like a child and just let tears roll down my face.
Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart -Winnie the Pooh
I come back into the main room just as Taylor runs out. Confused, I look at Gemini and wonder what happened.
"What was she here for?" I ask.
"Pregnancy test," she replies.
Oh sh*t...
"I'm going to go talk to Alex," I say, "She needs him now and I doubt he's where she bolted off to."
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I finish my shower and dress, coming out of the bathroom just as someone knocks on the door. Noticing that Taylor isn't back yet, I go to answer it and find Jason there instead, a grave expression on his face.
"Taylor isn't here, is she?" he asks.
I shake my head, "No, why?"
"You need to find her, Alex. She's fine, but she shouldn't be alone."
I study him, slipping on my shoes.
"What happened?" I ask, having the slightest idea of where she would have went.
"Have her tell you," he replies, stepping aside so I can move, "I can't be sure."
I nod and head off, checking the park first before walking to our secret place. I find her curled up on the couch, sobbing. My heart drops in my chest and I automatically hate whatever made her sad, laying behind her and wrapping my arms around her.
"It's okay, Tay," I whisper, "What's wrong?"
I'm never what I like I'm double sided And I just can't hide I kind of like it When I make you cry 'Cause I'm twisted up, twisted up Inside
Taylor Alex comes behind me and wraps his arms around me. He asks me what's wrong. I Trey to tell him, but words don't come out. "I'm..I'm not..not. I'm not pregnant and I wanted to be." I say. I wipe the tears from my eyes.
Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart -Winnie the Pooh
My heart sinks further and tears of my own seem to burn behind my eyes. Blinking them back, I kiss her cheek and tighten my grip.
"It's okay, Tay," I whisper, wiping the tears from her eyes, "We can always change that. This is just one time. We have a lifetime together, Taylor. I promise you, if a child is what you want, I'll give you one."
I'm never what I like I'm double sided And I just can't hide I kind of like it When I make you cry 'Cause I'm twisted up, twisted up Inside
Dogs love their friends and bite their enemies, quite unlike people, who are incapable of pure love and always have to mix love and hate. — Sigmund Freud