through the mask

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He smiles and jokes but I see the pain
All new to him and all brought on so suddenly
He had a glowing about him that made it hard to look away
And hard not to smile when you saw him
Now people say cruel and hateful things to him
"Fag" "i was scared he would molest me in my sleep"
And most recently "why don’t you kill yourself?"
Why can’t people see what they're doing to him?
Slowly eating the person he once was into a shadow
One day he confided in me saying he was tired of all
The calling out and rudeness i told him it would take time
But even i don't fully understand what to say when he asks
Those simple questions "why?" and "how long?"
He said one night he had the chance to commit suicide
And he honestly considered it hoping They would see all
The pain They had caused and feel bad, but something told
Him not to, someone would make him feel better
And that someone was me
I told him suicide wasn't the answer, and was harder to do
When you come face to face with it
So i continue to try and easy his pain
Sometimes i think its working but when he cries it's a reminder
This is still him but what i see isn't
It's a shadow. A reflection,
A mask of his former self
And nothing can change that
Last edited by callenlover on Sun Oct 09, 2011 6:49 pm, edited 3 times in total.
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Hallo! Here to review.

So, it looks like this is a deliberate freeverse, so I promise not to mention punctuation (much). As for your capitalisation, though, you could easily either capitalise all the lines or un-capitalise all those that begin with capitals, for the sake of simplicity and easiness to read. Also, when your poem begins with a capital, people don't really expect to see a lowercase personal "I" in there, which can be a bit of a shock to readers. It's all personal preference at this point, though.

Now. The first four lines (1-4) - like I said about the personal "I", but that could just be me. In the second line, I believe you meant "all new" instead of "all knew" - it's a common typo, though I don't know why. The third line, I feel like there could be some better descriptor for what he was instead of "amazing, cool and popular"; those are all so shallow words in today's society. They don't really have an impact on the average reader who will have been brought up learning how to be "cool" or "popular" or socially "amazing". In the fourth line, the same - "cruel" is a good word, but not "hateful". "Unwarranted", perhaps? "Things" should also be changed. Maybe you could say something along the lines of "now people leave cruel, unwarranted messages for him" or the like. Please, I always - always - encourage people to use strong words when the poetry calls for it, and this looks like a case where the poetry is absolutely wailing.

Next four lines (5-8) - I'm not sure how much I like it that the fifth line of the poem is dialogue. I suppose it would be called for after the "cruel and hateful things" in the last line. Compared to the sixth line, I feel like it fits, though. In the sixth line - since I see you using apostrophes for contractions elsewhere - could you put one in "dont"? Same with "cant" in the seventh line; you use an apostrophe in "they're" later on in that same line, so - are you averse to them? The eighth line - oh my god this imagery. This is the strongest line in the poem so far, and I love it.

Next four lines (9-12) - I don't have much to say about the ninth line, except perhaps put an "of" at the end of the line for clarity that it continues onto the tenth. Personal preference, that is. In the tenth line, could there be some separation between the two ideas? Maybe a dash, since this is more simplistic in its use of punctuation. In the eleventh line, I believe you meant "understand" - another little typo. Just curious, do you use a word processing program? If so, does it have spellcheck? That would be useful to catch these little mistakes. Twelfth line, I sincerely have no problem with this, but it could be stated a little better... again, that's just me.

Next four (13-16) - The only peeve I have with these four lines is that you could put "that" before "someone" in the sixteenth to make it clearer. Other than that, I love the words you used and I really don't see any problem with capitalising They in this instance; it makes the word stand out and evokes emotion in the reader to some extent. Don't rely on only one word, though! Surrounding phrases mean a lot in this kind of context; where readers can take one sentence out of a prose work that could be universally understood without reading the work, it's much harder to pick a line out of poetry. Make your entire poem memorable, and make them pick the whole poem solely because it's a beautiful piece of work.

Next four (17-20) - okay, in the seventeenth - it said "someone" in the line before, and now you're saying "something"? Stick with someone, as to not confuse your readers; it's only a slight change in phrase, but it can be consequential as well. In the twentieth, I think you meant "ease", not "easy". Yet another typo. (Come on, hon, you can do this, you can catch these things! I know you can! Everyone can catch a typo if they try.) Other than that, still pretty good, even if the terminology is a little weak.

Last five (21-25) - After "shadow" in line 23, could you put a comma instead of a full stop? It feels like that would fit better, especially with your comma after "reflection", and it would work better for flow. Well, after "refletcion" (which should be "reflection") - it seems like the typos are increasing in regularity. Did you proof-read this and get tired of seeing your own words float before your eyes? Were you insanely exhausted when it was written? Are you dyslexic? (In the last case, perhaps you could find a way to change the colour of the background against the words to something other than white, and make it a little easier for you to read? I'm not dyslexic, but I've heard that helps somewhat.)

I don't know how I feel about line 25, the end line. It seems a bit... disappointing, but perhaps you meant it that way. I do like the ending in general, though, and the poem overall. This is nice. ^^
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