You say that im ugly
And all I do is laugh it off
You make fun of me
And I just shrug it off
You talk about my teeth
The space between them
And I know that before I’d seeth
But you see now, im proud of them
You laugh about my lips
You say that they’re enormous
My heart then flips
But they don’t stop me from being fabulous
You mock my behind
You say its in excess
But if I looked at you I could find
10 things full of horridness
You tell me the truth in a very subtle way
You say that telling me im pretty would only be a lie
And before I’d have been so full of dismay
And would have screamed to god: “Why Why WHY ???”
But you see im not the same
And this aint yesterday
Im not the girl so full of shame
Who used to cry all day
And its amazing how
I don’t even hate you
After all you’ve told me now
After knowing you’ll still continue
But its not that I don’t care
Its just ive come to accept the truth
Which once whipped me bare
And filled my heart with black sooth
And its also weird you see
This feeling in my gut
Every time you’re near me
My blood vessels seem to clot
Ain’t it just ironic?
That my heart should feel this way
Beat so fast and steady
When you’re near me everyday?
Knowing that I’ll never be yours
But still feeling like this
Knowing that your heart bores
Me no feeling whatsoever
And still feeling my heart
Beat in that ragged rhythm
Feeling him break apart
Like sugar does in magnesium
But then you aint the only one
Who’s laughed at my appearance
Who’s taken one look at me
And laughed his but off
So you see I don’t blame you
I don’t hold it against you
You don’t think im pretty
Its okay I’ll live with it
They never thought I was beautiful either
So don’t worry I dont hate you
You’re just saying the truth aren’t you?
But then aren’t they all ?
You all mock the way I look
‘Cause im not Ms-Blondie-Face
And you wont let me off the hook
Instead you all just increase your pace
YES! I admit
I aint Ms-Blondie-Face
Or Ms-Fan-Freaking-Tastic-ass
Or again Ms-Perfect-Boobs
Im not one of those gals
With faces that just knock you all senseless
Im not one of those gals
So full of prettiness
No. No. No.
Im just your average gal
With my features all natural
Im not some perfect chick
With a jaw-dropping-face
No. No. No.
Im just me you see
The gal with the dreams
The gal with a heart
Eternally hoping
I aint someone special
Its just me you all
So now when you tell me im ugly
Do you think it makes a difference?
When you make fun of me
Does it alter my appearance?
When you talk about my flaws
Do you see any tears?
When you tear my face apart
Do you see any fears?
I would know the answer.
No No NO!
I look at myself in mirror
But I already know what it will show
Don’t think my heart is stoned
Nah its far from that!
But its now honed
In a shape to fend off all your facts
Look im not Ms-Im-So-Strong
Or Ms-Ive got so much-self-esteem
Or again Ms-I-Don’t-Care-Whatever-You-Say
On the contrary
You cant believe the pain I feel
When you tell me im so ugly
You cant imagine all the hurt in which I reel
But ive come to look at myself
And not feel so much hatred
I thank God for who I am
Cause I know some aint as fortunate
Im not Ms-Bloody-perfect
But you aint no one to tell me
That im just full of ugliness
That im so freaking horrid
I don’t have that self-esteem
To not care bout what you say
But ive got enough control
To ward off your insults so cruel
Go on keep insulting
You’re not the one I’ll fall in love with tomorrow
When I’ll open my eyes someday
You guys wont be the ones next to me
So ive only got one thing to say
Keep on mocking me all you want
I’ll marry some day
And it wont be someone like you
Im done with your jeers
Your mocking eyes, and sneers
Im done with your mockery
I’ll always be me.
