You reach for me
But even your long arms aren't
Close enough to grab hold
Instead they miss me
Barely scratch the surface of who I am
And who I'm meant to be
You are the fountain of which I drink from
But you do not give me the strength I need
You cannot be my sole token of survival
You cannot be my true love indeed
I had learned time and time again
That I can not find completion in any man
Yet when I look into your eyes
Your blue, blue eyes
I find hope
Hope that maybe just this once that things will be different
That maybe just once I had found what I needed
In you
That maybe just this once I would be happy
Content
Loved unconditionally
But that's too much to ask of you
Isn't it?
Isn't it too much to hope for
When someone that should have loved me
Never could
So why should you continue to reach for me?
When I am a porceline doll that's been dropped
Time and time again
Until there is no shred of rememberance
No portion that has not been broken
Nothing that shines a light on who I am
Or who I used to be
I reach for you
But my arms are not long enough
To even touch the tip of your fingers
That are outstretched
And reaching for me
How I wish to pull your arms around me
To comfort myself with you
Because only when I'm with you
Do the things of the past seem to disappear
You don't seem to care that I'm a broken doll
That's been shattered
Stepped on
Broken into so many pieces
That I'm no longer who I used to be
And for that I thank you
Even if I cannot touch you
My heart reaches for you
And I try to kiss you once more
For coming to me when I needed it most
To kiss my pain away
Even if you couldn't kiss me with your mouth
Your heart was even better
