Four months have passed now,
have you noticed at all, my love?
Maybe you have but don't care.
Or maybe you can't say hello.
My mind fumbles through the days.
Slowly and agonizing time passes,
Yet still I have not heard from you.
Maybe she's just busy.
She won't be back.
Its her graduation.
Can't you see she's gone?
She'll come back.
She has abandoned you.
How long will this last?
The pain spreads throughout.
Yet I still wait,
anxiously and painfully.
Still you have not shown.
Maybe I hurt her somehow.
You didn't. You weren't good enough.
She said she would come back.
She is never coming back.
I wish you were here, my love.
Shut up. She is never coming.
The days drag on,
I lose the joy in my heart.
My smiles become nothing
and my eyes never shine.
Broken and hurt I have become.
I watch the screen blankly.
I hear the ding of the alert.
You are back,
Yet I have moved on.
You say your sorry.
That you didn't mean to.
Yet you had left me for so long.
I couldn't say I hate you.
I don't hate you, my love.
My heart is only broken.
Tears fall down my face.
You have been here for days now.
Yet my mind keeps whispering,
Darkly and cruelly
It keeps me from enjoying
The feeling of you here.
Another week passes.
You have gone again.
My heart finally cracks
And my first message to you,
Goodbye. I have lost.
The darkness has swallowed
My mind completely.
No longer do I dream of you.
I turn back to my journal.
And write my final goodbye.
Ty is right about your rhyme being just a little messy but the excellence of emotion makes up for it. I'd like to read more of your work. 
