I have some things I need to say
To get off of my chest:
I am not the best,
I am no better than the rest
I tried to be strong,
But inside I felt all wrong.
I tried to help
I really did
I’m sorry I couldn’t be there
When you needed me
I’m sorry I couldn’t open up to you
When you asked me
I'm sorry I made you cry
I'm sorry my life was a lie
There is nothing to justify my actions
Or what I said or did
I'm sorry I snapped
And didn't turn to you
I felt all alone
Even when you were there
I’m sorry I couldn’t admit I was afraid
I’m sorry I was scared
I'm sorry I hurt myself,
I know it hurt you too
But my actions are my own
I did what I needed to do
You no longer needed me
You never really needed me
My soul is free
My body gone
My spirit still with you
I tried my best
It just wasn’t enough
The sun no longer warmed my heart
The way it did you
I hope you’re happy
I want you to be
You meant a lot to me
You all did
I loved you all
So very very much
I am me, and you loved me
Just the way I was
But there were things I could never really say
Could never really do
Even around you
I trusted you
I really did,
I just couldn’t find it in me
You deserve far more than what I gave
I’m sorry I’m in my grave
