Marie
I felt both guilt and relief as Arianna's eyes filled with tears and she fell into step right beside the litter carrying Derrick. How could I have thought it would be her? Of course not. No. But then which of- no! None of the siblings would do this, they weren't cold hearted or ruthless. They were just children. It had to be something it ate, it had to be... except I couldn't make myself believe that. It would be an injustice to the perfect memory of Derrick. No, that wasn't fair on him. I felt my own tears pushing forward and looked down, tracing the beautiful patterns of the carpet. It really was a beautiful place to grow up and a beautiful place to die.
As the prince was set down on the bed in the guest room, I found my sense of purpose shrivel into nothing. His sisters crowded around, Sandor's attention was distracted by one of his men and I found myself at a loss for what to do. Do. Was there anything I could do? The notion was a foolish one, of course not. I wanted to throw myself over his body and cry my eyes out. But that wouldn't be propper of your station, would it? an inward voice snorted. Well I could cry. Just try and stop me from crying. I pulled out a plain handkerchief and sniffed into that, drying my eyes and feeling stupid.
Okay so crying wasn't something I could do either. That was for ladies and fainting maids and I'd never been very good at the fainting business. So I dried my eyes one more time and stowed the handkerchief away. I needed a purpose? Poo to that! I had one and it was finding out what was going on here. At the very idea of that, my every nerve fought to explain how it wasn't my place but my heart was made up and my mind said: well. Maybe it isn't my place but it's Sandor's and nobody will dispute that my place is will with royal children so I can just go ahead and follow him. It was certainly a more savoury idea than tailing any of the other siblings. The sisters. It was harsh to remind myself that there was no longer a second brother so the word siblings might as well be ripped from my vocabulary. It would have no further use.
Sandor came back into the room looking, well looking like he was going to kill someone. Maybe he already had. I jumped at the thought in my head, ashamed and angry. No. This was his reaction to the death, this was... I had to start trusting someone. Sandor had been closer to Derrick than any of the others.
And he was looking at me. I wondered what he'd seen in my face and hoped it wasn't any level of accusation and if that was there? It wasn't against him. Not Sandor. I forced a weak smile and walked over.
"If it's okay with you I... I'd like to return to my room now." It was strange to ask permission for such a thing but I felt that with the day's events, with... well. I didn't know why I did it but I certainly couldn't just leave.
