I woke up to the sound of banning on my door and Zeek screaming “Help me! Help me! Ace has my shoes and he’s going to set them on fire.” That got me to jump out of my bed ran to the door and scoop zeek up in my arms; then I ran down the hall to the boys bathroom and throw open the door to see Ace with a lighter in his hand. “Ace drop that lighter or I am going to kill you.” I said, but all he did was laugh. “Ace if you don’t stop I will scream so loud it will wake up dad and he is going to come looking for some to blame and it is going to be you.” This time he responded “Go ahead and do it dad is gone for the week and mom has gone with him, so it is just us and the driver. That pissed me off and we only had an hour before we had to leave for school and I had no time for this so I just said “ Go ahead do it, I have to take a shower before school and get everyone ready to go. So just do it so I can put it out and then get ready.” That caught him off gaud so he just shrugged and throw me the shoes. “Thanks, now Mr. knows it all will you get ready so we are not late to day.” And with that Ace left the bathroom and then I put Zeek on the ground and gave him his shoes. “Now you get ready and don’t worry about Ace one of these days you will be a big strong man and then you can kick his butt.” Then I kissed him on the forehead and went off to take a shower.
After I showered, got dressed, and got the little kids dressed I ran down the stair so I could get a bet to eat before we had to leave. But when I got the bottom of the stairs, I find that everyone was gone. So I grabbed my backpack, a groan bar, and ran out the front door. The limo was out front with everyone in it waiting for me; so I got in the car to find that Ace is making everyone lives hell, by passing gas. “Ace will you knock it off, no on want to smell your gas.” I said to him but he just laughs and keeps on going. So I opened the window so we all can breath but the smell is still nazeating. When we got to school I was so happy to smell fresh air, that I did not notice that Ruth had walked up to me.
Alex whets up, you did not call me last night.” I turn to her and said “I have a lot of homework and Ace is being an ass. “Alex I heard that!” Ace said from behind us but Ruth and I just ignored him and went t on talking. “Alex, whets wrong with you? You have that look on your face that says some thing is wrong.” I still don’t speak, but I pull the sleeves of my sweater down over my hands and from the look on Ruth’s face she can see I am hiding something. “Alexandra! Are you cutting yourself again?” as he saying this she grabs my wrist and pulls up my sleeve. “Alex! I thought we talked about the cutting thing. You said you where going to stop, but it looks like you lied.” She drops my wrist and I quickly pull my sleeve down, so one will see all the scrers. “Ruth, I was having a bad day and I wanted an escape.” That pissed her of, but she was not going to scream at me in front of everyone; so she pulled me off to the sided of the parking lot where no one goes, then starts to scream. “Alex! I am done I am I am not hiding your problems anymore. I am calling your Dad so he can get you some help.” I got pissed and screamed back at her “Don’t you dare, it was only one time in weeks.” She knew I was lying and that mad her more anger with me. “One time in weeks, that is bull Alex and you know it. You have scares on your arms that are days old and how long before it gets to the point where you want to kill yourself.” I didn’t speak because I knew she was right, so she went on “You know I am right and I am calling your dad right now.” Ruth pulls out her phone and calls my Dad. I knew in that moment that everything was over; that I did not have to be affair of being caught. But at the same time I knew I was in big trouble when I got home. But that was as far as I got before Ruth said “Your parents are coming home; they are going to be back in a few hours to pick you up from school.” I could not make my mouth form word so I just nodded.
I zone out in all of my classes till it was almost time for lunch. Where my history teacher Mr. pain called me to tell me I was going home. I just nodded and left the class with all of my stuff. When I got to the office my mother came up to my and gave me a hug; then she pulled back and pulled up the sleeves of my sweater. She was shocked to see the cuts but she was not mad at me; but on the other hand my dad was looking at my with disapproving eyes. “What dad, are you mad at me for what I am or that just pissed I did not tell you?” I said this not like I was mad but like I just wanted an answer. “I am not mad that you have a problem and I not pissed that you did not tell me. I am mad at myself because you thought you could not tell me the truth.”
That caught me off guard and I didn’t know what to say so he went on “Alex why didn’t you tell us you had a problem? I looked down but I answered his question “Dad I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to get mad. Because when you get mad you hit us and I don’t want that.” I stopped to give him a change to repose to what I said. “You think I would get mad about this? I just want you to be safe and heath, and this is not safe or heath. You need to tell us when stuff like this starts to happen to you.” I looked up to see he was standing right in front of me. “I will from now on, but will you promise to go to anger management for your problems too.” He laughs and said “I will and so will you. You are going to see a doctor today about your depression and don’t you dare ague. Also tomorrow you will start seeing a therapist, and anger management coach, and you are to speed a lot more time with your family.” I just smile a big smile and my parent gave me a big huge; then we left to go see a doctor about my depression.
You know how when we started I told you that the true will never really set you free; well I was wrong, I was really wrong. Because that day I learned that no mater how dark your live my seem to you, there is always someone looking out for you. Weather it be your friends or your family, somebody really cares for you and loves you. So just let the love in!
: BE HAPPY