Sometimes I really have no clue of what’s going on in my life. The whole world moves along without me and I stay seated on my bed thinking and wondering what is really up in my life, did I miss something, or not? Is this going on too fast? These questions keep on filling my head as problems fill my life as I move along.
As quote said “Curiosity killed the cat…” why? Curiosity is really what people have. Curiosity makes life a bit better because you wanna know something new, something even shocking. Things pop into my life and make it spark, but eventually the spark of light goes out.
Moving from place to place has been killing me. Getting to know a new place and getting used to it, then automatically we move to the next city. The friends I had are still my friends, but sadly, not all. Some people just don’t remember forever, or actually just don’t even care. There has been so many things that I’m so happy I missed out on and some I’m not.
Right now 3 people have changed it my life dramatically, and it really made me shift, as in try to help. But, it didn’t really work out so I let it be, someday they will find out by themselves and say “Wow, she was right, I should have listened.” So I’ll let that be their priority.
Curiosity made me get something shocking. It really didn’t kill the cat.
While I listen to music my mood changes completely, but I think everyone’s does. The music takes me on a path to follow. It tells me all the different ways of stories my life really goes through, it’s just sometimes, I don’t believe it. At all. Or Ever.
As I was saying; from moving I learned so many things that make me so called experienced. Nothing surprises me, unless it is something new. The world is a simple thing to me. Global Warning, come on. All of you know why it happened! If we would have started caring earlier, it wouldn’t have gotten this large; ECO is the word for it. America and China are the countries that are the most polluted, others don’t really pollute that much as America and China.
People don’t shock me unless they are really different. I know I will still be meeting different people but, until now I’ve met a lot of different types of people that I think meeting more different personalities is Masakra (in Polish meaning: Crazy). I’ve met the selfish, the slut, the paranoid, the user, the gold digger, the loner, and the unknown. It has been crazy, trust me.
I’ve moved from America to Poland and back and forth. I love both countries but now, Poland is where I am. I have to live with it, it’s difficult but who said life was easy?
Einstein was not good in school but look! He’s a genius that found out about E=mc2. What I’m saying is that life is full of surprises, and you gotta be happy about it! Life can be a bitch, but it really doesn’t have to be one. If you make life the way you want it, then I think you’ll be happy. Won’t you? Think about it. You watch movies and shows. You see how people live on it, sometimes a happily ever after, the end. You can make a Happily Ever After if you really want to. Don’t waste time on whining “Yeah, that’s ONLY in movies/shows…” yeah right. It can be real.
Living in America for 12 years than moving to Poland changes a teenager’s life. I had great friends, really close, than bam. I move. Here it is not different at all, except for the language, that’s all. It’s truly the same. Schools are tougher because it’s higher standards than America, but I handle it pretty well for myself, an American.
Getting friends is going well, but one friend has really changed an impact in my life.
He was only a friend to me. People have spread rumors (well, they were true (I found out later)), I was really naïve. I thought “Psh lies.” I wanted to see for myself, I just met these people, they may be jealous I have him as a friend, or that I can handle having a guy as a friend (this school is loco!). This guy is an ass-hole. He lied to me, a user/gold digger. Fake friended me just so he can convince me to be his girlfriend (to tell all his friends he has an American girlfriend or a girlfriend at all!). He thinks having a girlfriend is cool, when it really is not. I was really naïve. The girls in my class told me “Don’t do it!” “He just wants to date you because he dates every new girl!” “He’s gonna use you!” And did I believe them at that point, not really. I’m so stupid that I had to see for myself, and the result was: They. Were. Right.
So, I completely deleted him from my life. Crossed him out. He’s out. Of course I still hate his guts, but how could he even think that I was so naïve?!
The moves have had a great impact on me. But, I handle them pretty well for my age. I have to mature faster to get used to this, we may move even 50 times more, but who really knows. Everyone says “Only God knows,” because I think He only knows. Well, let’s hope it’s something good.
In class every day we have English (this is Poland so they are learning the language). It’s stupid to sit in, I try to sleep, but I can’t. That sucks.
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