What happened happened. You can’t undo what happened. It pisses me off that you can’t hit a “redo button” and everything will be fine. My best friend, Jake, is in love with me. I don’t know what to do. I feel that way too, but not as hugely as he does. It makes me sick thinking that I could hurt him in such a way.
When he told me this, I laughed, and then cried. He noticed that I really didn’t feel that way, and I told him that! I told him “I like you a lot,”, but not as much as you like me. It made him sad, so I ran home. And here I am, walking, sad that I didn’t give him a chance.
I’m really close to home, so no worries.
My phone starts ringing, so I answer it.
“Hello,” I ask
“Hey Nike,” Hugh says
Hugh is British, so expect the unexpected
“Hey Hugh, What’s up,” I say
“Nothing really, Heard something went wrong between you and Jake, what happened,” He says
“Um, nothing, he just got sad that, um, um,” I say
“What,” he asks
“That he loves me, and I like him a lot, but not like he does,” I say
Silence
“Um, wow,” He spits out
“Yeah,” I say
“I’ve gotta go, I’ll talk to you later, okay,” He says
“Uhuh, bye,” I say and hang up
I keep on walking and spot my mom talking to the neighbor in the snow.
I run inside and swipe my coat off and run to my room.
I grab my book and lay on my bed and start reading “Bliss” by Lauren Myracle.
Bleep! Someone’s IM-ing me.
I get up and check. It’s Jake,
Jakster: Hey, wat’s up?
I’m not typing back, no way, no how. I’ll hurt him even MORE!
But I want to type.
So I will type, everything will be fine like I pressed the “Redo-Button”.
Nike: Um, nm. How do u feel? R u ok?
Jakster: Kinda bummed out, but yeah, I completely understand that u really aren’t ready
Nike: It’s not that! I like u, but u love me
Jakster: Yeah
Nike: I’m sry. I really want things to be better
Jakster: It will be better! Why can’t we just try?
That’s a great idea! I wanted to do that! Yes, the “Redo-Button” is a GENIUS!
Nike: Yeah, um, I’d like dat...
Jakster: Kool...
I get off and continue reading. Even more snow hits the ground, and my little sister is still outside playing with mom.
I play on my iPod “Let It Snow” and start singing to it, while reading. I don’t notice that Jake typed to me during my fun time.
After a while my sister Hannah comes in.
“Hey! Nike! Your computer is beeping,” Hannah says
I take off my headphones,
“What,” I ask
“Your. Computer. Is. Beeping.” She says
“Oh, thanks,” I say
I get off my bed and check my computer. Must’ve not noticed it, Jake typed.
Jakster: r U ok?
Jakster: hello?
Jakster: is it wrong that i care?!
Jakster: NIKE!
Fuck, made him mad. I made him mad!
Nike: sry i didn’t type. I waz reading and listening 2 my ipod. didnt hear u type...
Jakster: Oh, well, ok
Nike: it’s not wrong that u care, im fine
Jakster: really?
Nike: Uhuh
Oh my god, Hugh’s on. I can run away from this conversation!
Nike: hey Hugh! Wats up?
BriAme: nm, u?
Nike: nm 2. Just talked to Jake...
BriAme: and...?????...?????
Nike: nothing! Why?
BriAme: Becuz u guys r, u know, 2gether
Nike: NO WE R NOT! :@
BriAme: Really?
Nike: um, yeah
BriAme: Hesitation...???
Nike: No
BriAme: ok, let’s, move on
Nike: Gr8 idea! Did u do the h.w.?
BriAme: Uhuh
Nike: me 2
BriAme: Jakes typing 2 me, he says u r ignoring him!? WHY!?
Nike: im not! Hes not even typing 2 me!
I notice I’ve got 15 messages from Jake. He can never leave me alone can he?!
Jakster: so um, do u want 2 go 2 the Christmas Dance w/ me?
Jakster: I mean if u don’t want 2 u dont need 2
Jakster: at least u could TELL ME that u dont want 2; i can take it, instead of ignoring me!
And the rest of the messages go like that...
Nike: It’s not like that, i had 2 walk the dog thats all, i already have a date 2 the dance. Sry
Jakster: Oh, okay...
Nike: ur not mad, r u?
Jakster: no, no im not
Nike: I g2g. Im going 2 Haley’s party, r u going?
Jakster: No, bye!
Nike: Bye
I log off and change my clothes. It’s a Christmas party, so Christmas is the theme.
Attire: NewYorker Black Skinny Jeans, Aeropostale Light Blue Snowflake Top, Wal-Mart Black High-Heels, NewYorker Black Warm Sweater, Eighth note and Snowflake and Sagittarius shaped necklace.
I run into the bathroom and brush my hair and curl some of it and leave some of it straight. Next, i put on some Watermelon Flavored Lip Gloss and Green eye shadow and Mascara (i don’t wear make-up, but when the time calls, i do).
I run downstairs, and get into the living room.
“Mama, can you drop me off at Haley’s,” I say
“Sure, just after this show is done,” She says
“Which will be how long,” I ask
“5 minutes,” She says
So I sit down right next to her and start watching. The show is on BBC Lifestyle and a British guy is making TOUNGE for Christmas, yes Tongue... Sick.
“EW,” I yell and cover my face
“They have to eat something Nike, it’s for the good and it’s controlled, They can kill for food.” Mom says
“Sure,” I say
When the show’s done we run into the car and drive. It’s a 10 minute drive.
“Gordon Ramsay is better than that British cook eating tongue!” I say
“Gordon is British too,” Mom says
“I know that, but I love him, that’s the difference, he’s a more better cook, and knows that tongue’s sick,” I say
“Ok, ok, we are close,” She says
I see Haley’s house right around the corner.
The streets are filled with lights and filled with holiday spirit. People are all laughing and smiling. The smell of food from reastraunts such as: McDonald’s, Mexicano, Pizza Hut, Wiezynek, Jeff’s, ect.
“Nike, we’re here,” She says
“Ok, pa mama!” I say
We kiss each other on the cheek and I head out to Haley’s house.
I ring her doorbell and shiver in the coldness of the day. It’s 1:30 pm, so I’m on time.
Haley opens the door and lets me in. I hand her the Christmas present and give her my coat, Next I get into the party.
I see people chatting with each other, dancing, singing, whatever. Christmas songs fill the room and the feeling of Christmas spirit fills in.
“Nicolle? Is that you,” Some girl asks me
I turn around and see its Ania.
“Yeah, it’s me! How are you? We didn’t meet in a while!” I say
“Oh, I’m fine. You,” Ania asks
“Great, just great,” I say
I forgot all about the Jake Thing, which is great so I can be happier.
“Gotta run, Sebastian’s waiting,” She says
“K,” I say
I start walking around, there aren’t many people that I know, and even Haley ran to who knows where!
I go to the food counter and grab a sandwich and eat, I gaze around and see how people are happy and all the problems never happened, they just fade away like the “Redo-Button”.
Oh My God! Jake’s here! He said he wouldn’t come! What the hell, he lied!
I walk up to him.
“Hey Jake, I thought you weren’t gonna be here,” I say
“Well, I lied, I’m here,” He says
“Well, you could have told me you were coming! We could have come together,” I say
“Why didn’t you go with your boyfriend?” He asks
“Um, I don’t have a boyfriend,” I say
“But that date to the dance, you could have came with him,” He says
“No I couldn’t have because he hates Haley,” I say
“Oh well, your loss,” He says
“What do you mean by that?! It’s your loss,” I say
“Why, Why would it be my loss,” He asks
No fucking way, why are we fighting on the wonderful Christmas party?! AH!
“Because, we love each other and you aren’t doing anything about it!” I yell
What the hell did I say? WHAT THE HELL DID I SAY!?!?!?! AH!
I see that Jake is silent and we’re staring at each other. It feels like everyone froze around us and are staring at us, but they aren’t doing that, Christmas spirit stole their bad soles and they forgot ours.
I smell fresh baked cookies coming in.
“I didn’t mean to say that, sorry,” I say and run away
I feel that everything’s falling down on me. I heard Jake call after me, but I don’t wanna fight anymore, or even talk to him at this moment! After a moment someone grabs me, I’m afraid it’s Jake so I don’t turn around.
“Nike, hey,” Justin says
I turn around
“Hey,” I say
Justin Kowalski is part of my class. He can speak English fluently and is such a great friend.
“Why were you running,” He asks
“Um, because I was looking for you,” I say
“Well, here I am,” He says
“Here you are,” I say
“I’m sorry, but I gotta go, Haley’s calling,” He says
“Ok, bye,” I say
Finally, away from Jake. It’s better from here. I walk up to the food counter and eat some cookies.
Haley comes to me and stands on a podium. She’s holding a candy cane crown, oh, I remember, every party a Christmas Queen and King are chosen. I never got chosen, and don’t think I will. People are gathering around her and I just sit on a chair next to the table. The Christmas songs go quieter and Haley picks up her voice to the microphone.
“Hello, my party peps. You have gathered here to a Christmas Party, for the fun and gratitude of Christmas. Make all your problems fade away. It’s time for the Christmas Queen & King.” Haley says
“The chosen ones, come up. Queens: Nike Stahl, Penelope King, Oh, me, Ania Serolska!” She says
People clap and yell our names.
Me, I was chosen!? To maybe be QUEEN!? OH MY GOD!
I walk up to the stage and stand next to Haley. I have stage fright, so I’m kind of frightened. People stare at all 4 of us and wait for the King’s to be said.
“King’s are: Hugh Ramsey, Jake Heroty, Andrzej Johnson, and Justin Kowalski!” She says
People clap and say their names.
Oh, I’m so happy for Hugh to get chosen, and Jake too. See, I’m not that evil.
“Now it’s time for the Christmas King & Queen to be announced.” She says
Everyone is stressing especially the people on stage. The room fills with the tension of stress.
After Haley gets the envelopes she speaks up.
“The Christmas Queen for this year, it’s her first time being Christmas queen so it can’t be me. The Queen is: Nike Stahl!” She says
What?! ME! OH MY GOD! YES!
I step into the light that is flashing above me and get my crown put on. Everyone is clapping and cheering me on. I’m smiling and can’t stop smiling. I feel so bright and happy! I’m Christmas Queen of 2009. Wow.
“And the Christmas King is: Jake Heroty!” She says
What? No way. That’s a coincidence. How could that be? Both of us. Wow.
He steps into his light and gets his crown on. Everyone’s cheering and clapping. I’m silent and in complete shock. Wow.
Haley pulls me to the podium and tells me to stand there and say my thank-you’s.
“Um, hi, I am very thankful to all of you that you chose me to be Christmas Queen! It’s such a surprise to me. Thank you all!” I say
No stress, forget about your problems, everything will be fine.
Jake gets up to the microphone. Him standing so close gets me nervous. Don’t know why, and are there Butterflies in my stomach, how did they get there?!
“I’d like to say thanks, and I will always be thankful for this. I’m happy to be standing here with my best friend Nike.” He says
We smile at each other and I feel again that we’re the only people in the world. Oh, how lovely... What did I say?! “Oh, how lovely...” NO WAY!
But before I can stop staring; he kisses me. Right in front of everyone; he kisses me.
When we stop kissing I notice everyone is staring at us and keep silent. But now, People are cheering and we all get off the stage and onto the floor. Haley takes spot and speaks up.
“I’m very happy for the Christmas Queen & King! Have fun,” She says and gets off the stage
The Christmas songs grow back up and everyone goes back into lovey-dovey Christmas steal-bad-soles-mood.
“Nike, um, we really gotta talk,” Jake says
“Um, ok,” I say
“Spill,” I add
“No, not here, follow me,” He says
Jake takes my hand and leads me into Haley’s bed room.
He locks the door and we both sit on her bed.
“So,” I ask
“We haven’t talked things through,” He says
“Why can’t we talk about this some other time, like, not here,” I say
“Because, I don’t want us to be weird anymore,” He says
“Ok,” I say
“I really like you, I’ve known you for so long and I am so tired of hiding it anymore. I feel really close to you,” He says
“Stop, please stop, I can’t take this anymore,” I say as I get up to leave
He grabs my hand
“Please, Nike,” He says
So I sit down, I’m just so scared to hear this. I’m only 15, and I am scared of this.
“Go on,” I say
“I wanna be with you, a lot, so can we please at least try,” He asks
He grabs my hand and rubs it.
“Jake, um, I don’t think this is a good idea to try,” I say
“Then, to see, how we really feel,” He says
“Um , ok,” I say
“So you will go out with me, on a date,” He asks
God, I don’t know, that was so straight out. It’s so much harder now.
“Yes, Yes I will go out with you,” I say
A smile grows on his face, so I smile back.
We get up and leave the room holding hands.
When we get into the party something feels missing, Everyone’s here but they seem to be covering something, not anything good, but bad. But I shouldn’t worry about it. I got something very important already taken care of.
My phone’s starts ringing so I answer it.
“Hello,” I say
“Hey Nike, come home, grandma came with the Thompson’s,” My Mom says
“Oh, ok, can you pick me up,” I ask
“Yes, so get ready, I’m on my way, pa,” She says
“Pa,” I say
We both hang-up
“Jake, I have to go home, my mom’s picking me up and my grandma, the Thompson’s came over to visit. Can you walk me out,” I say
“OK, sure,” He says
We run to the door and put on coats and get outside.
A couple of years ago for a school trip. It's quite a lovely, sad place. That's a little bit why I clicked on this.
I would like to see this edited with full-stops and with the chapters separated from one another, it should make a better read.
