I’m drawn to no repulsion,
No anger and no shame.
For I can’t bare to hate you,
Damned feelings still the same.
I watch you holding hands,
I surprise myself with a smile.
Like watching a romantic film,
Pretending you were mine.
I’ve been called pathetic,
They didn’t know I did worse.
Wrote you birthday greeting on a bill,
So desperate, just terse.
No single message has been deleted,
Just to remember it was true.
They say I’m a deluded wreck,
For I’m still in love with you.
Distant memories should drown in oblivion,
But that I would never allow.
For though you have hurt me so,
Your part in me deserves a bow.
